A Testimony for Thanksgiving

Remembering this same week last year. A few weeks beforehand, an ultrasound had shown an abnormal, complex cyst on my left ovary. I went back in the Monday of Thanksgiving week to find the growth had more than tripled in size, still showing abnormalities, and was scheduled for an MRI for the following week. The day after Thanksgiving, I began having severe, escalating pain on my left side that seemed to be following the same trajectory as an ovarian torsion I had emergency surgery for over Thanksgiving 2007. To complicate matters, the doctor I needed to see had dropped me as a patient and was insisting I wait 3 weeks to be seen. My only options were to wait out the pain at home, hoping the cyst didn’t rupture or go to the ER.

The details are complicated at this point, but to make a long story short, I went to the ER, and they missed the fact that I was in the middle of an intermittent ovarian torsion. Essentially, the cyst had become so large that it was causing the ovary (which is suspended on the fallopian tube) to flip over the fallopian tube and cut off all blood supply to my ovary. The pain is excruciating when it happens. With a normal torsion, the ovary stays flipped, but with an intermittent torsion, it flips back and forth. Which it continued to do for 6 days.

Through the years, I’ve learned to be nonchalant regarding negative medical news, but this time I felt completely overwhelmed—physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. It seemed like some sort of surgery was imminent and the weeks leading up to Christmas was the worst timing possible. However, more than anything, I was most concerned about the fact that I didn’t have a confident expectation the Lord was fighting for me. I knew the Lord wasn’t condemning me for a lack of faith, but I also, thankfully, recognized I needed to put myself in a position for the Lord to be able to freely supply me with everything I had need of. 

I have a favorite playlist of sermons on healing from our senior pastor, Pastor Joseph Prince. I was only able to move from my bed to the chair in my room listening and watching sermon after sermon that emphasized the finished work of the cross. I frequently took communion, believing that, by His stripes, I had already been made whole. When the pain meds allowed me to sleep, I played worship music that emphasized the truth of the Gospel. Moment, by moment, as I renewed my mind to His truth, I felt my confidence in the Lord rising. The many years I waited for a 2nd child, I would often, intentionally meditate on seeing myself with another baby. It would instantly release a surge of hope that erased any disappointment from negative pregnancy tests. I asked the Lord for a picture of health in this situation I could meditate on. Immediately, in my heart, I began hearing our local pastor, Pastor Samuel Gabriel, share my testimony of total healing—a testimony I hadn’t seen the physical manifestation of yet. That moment was the tipping point for me. I knew with full confident, hopeful expectation that this battle had been fought and won.

Within a few days, the pain completely subsided, and I was only left with some mild soreness. Several weeks later, when I had my doctor’s appointment, I still couldn’t get in with my doctor, only the physician’s assistant. I had repeat imaging at the appointment and they were able to confirm the left ovary was 100% normal. The PA sat at her computer and kept flipping through the imaging I had done in the weeks prior and told me what she was seeing was a medical impossibility. She said the initial pictures showed a complex, abnormal cyst, but by the time I was seen at the ER, though the cyst was large, the composition of the cyst had completely changed into a normal, functional, fluid-filled cyst. She said the only possible explanation was that the cyst I had the Monday before Thanksgiving had completely healed on its own and was quickly replaced with a large simple cyst seen on imaging at the ER four days later. However, at this current appointment, imaging also showed a cyst on my right ovary that was even larger than the one that had been on my left ovary, but was painless. She said that, since my body seemed to be figuring out how to handle the cysts on its own, they were going to give me a few weeks, repeat imaging, and would schedule me for surgery if the cyst was still present at my next appointment. In the meantime, she biopsied my ovaries and uterus due to so much abnormal activity.

At this point, I was so convinced my healing was complete, I didn’t spend even a moment dwelling on the situation. We went on to have the best Christmas season of our married life. In early January, I went back and was finally able to be seen by my doctor who confirmed that both ovaries were completely healed, and all biopsy results were 100% normal. She said she reviewed all the tests and imaging from my ER visit the Friday after Thanksgiving and realized the ER had missed the intermittent torsion. She said that, had she been the doctor on call that night, she would have operated. I’m so thankful that what seemed like a frustrating delay ended up working to my benefit and allowed time for the full fruit of the healing to be clearly seen by all. I’m overwhelmed with gratitude all over again at His inexhaustible love, faithfulness, and power fighting every battle for me, causing me to freely receive everything He’s freely given. When I felt like I was surrounded by giants in the land, the Lord allowed me to see with the eyes of faith, (like Joshua and Caleb), that these giants were food for me to taste and see His goodness yet again.

Part 5: Expecting: Learning to Rest in the Waiting

I first started sharing my testimony in my last trimester of pregnancy and am now starting to plan our sweet Baby Mabel’s first birthday in just a few, short months. She is a daily reminder of the Lord’s lovingkindness and tender mercies. This is Part 5 of our story, you can start with Part 1 HERE.

To recap where I left off, after the birth of my first child, I was diagnosed with Secondary Infertility and did not conceive again for more than 8 years. In earlier posts, I walk through why my husband and I decided to forego medical treatment and the journey the Lord led us on from there. Im my last post, Part 4, I shared the list of Scriptures I compiled and meditated on daily and why I believe this was such a pivotal part of our journey.

Each morning, I would wake up early, sit in my favorite oversized, leather chair and spend time with Him. At some point most mornings, I would begin to read through my list of Scriptures and meditate on the truths the Lord was showing me about each verse. I would also partake of the Holy Communion knowing that it is the cup of the new covenant and that every blessing I have is only because of Jesus’ righteousness so freely given to me. I knew that, as I was partaking, His abundant life was flowing through my body, perfecting everything that concerns me (Psalm 138:8).

I’ve talked about it in previous posts, but my earlier pain of infertility had given way to a joyful expectancy of what I knew the Lord was going to do. As I read each of those Scriptures, I saw myself as a possessor of what I knew Jesus had already provided for me. I saw myself as the wife who is a fruitful vine in the very heart of her home, her children like olive plants, all around her table (Psalm 128:3). I saw myself as a daughter of Sarah who, herself, received the power to conceive even when she was past the age of childbearing because she considered Him faithful who had promised (Hebrews 11:11). When I would read Deuteronomy 7 about the blessings for the covenant people of God and it said that “None shall be barren among you or among your livestock,” my heart would cry out— “He didn’t even want for the livestock to be barren— how much MORE for me?!” Or Gabriel’s words to Mary concerning both her pregnancy as well as Elizabeth’s, “For nothing shall be impossible with God,” (Luke 1:37).

After a time, I added this passage from Romans 5:

“We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”

Throughout this journey, I had become more acquainted with the love of God than I even dreamed was possible. His love had been shed abroad in my heart and I KNEW that placing all my hope in Him would NEVER put me to shame.

I can look back now and see a key thing that changed for me during the 8 years of waiting. Early on, I didn’t know why God didn’t just do it— why didn’t He just give me another child? At the end of the journey, I saw the Father as GENEROUSLY and CONSTANTLY providing for me, withholding nothing back from me. I saw myself being perfectly provided for and restfully awaiting the physical manifestation of what I knew He had already freely given me. When you read Galatians 3:5 in original language, it says that God is constantly supplying His spirit to us and constantly working miracles among us. I had begun to see myself under a constant flow of His provision and I knew that I knew, “He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not, with Him, also freely give us all things?” (Romans 8:32).

In August of 2019, I turned 40 years old. I think by the world’s standards, many people just see that season for a woman as “post childbearing years.” I remember a few weeks before my birthday, I was waiting in the car to pick my daughter up from sewing camp and I stumbled upon a song called Seasons from Hillsong that I had not heard before. The lyrics of the bridge are:

“I can see the promise
I can see the future
You're the God of seasons
And I'm just in the winter
If all I know of harvest
Is that it's worth my patience
Then if You're not done working
God I'm not done waiting
You can see my promise
Even in the winter…”

This became my anthem for the coming weeks as I neared into the full manifestation God was bringing me to. If He wasn’t done working, I wasn’t done waiting— even if I was 40.

In all transparency, there were moments where I had to ask myself, “What if? What if this doesn’t turn out the way you think it should?” I quickly came to the conclusion that I knew it was the Lord Himself who put the desire in my heart for more children. I knew whether it was on this side of eternity, or the next, that He would fulfill those desires as only He can and that it would far exceed my expectations. I was long past questioning His wisdom.

On October 3rd, I had a 6 month checkup with my doctor. In previous appointments, she had repeatedly encouraged me and referred me to a new fertility specialist. She told me that she just didn’t want me to get down the road where my chances of conception were so bleak that I would have regrets for not pursuing medical intervention when I could have. I had the sticky note with the doctor’s name and number she had given me stuck to the inside cover of my day planner. Any time I would look at it and think about calling, I would just get such a yellow light in my spirit— that’s the best way I can explain it. I sat down at her desk and she immediately said, “First things first, where are you with wanting another child?” I said, “Dr. Scott, I can’t explain it. I definitely still want another child, but I feel so strongly that the Lord has already taken care of it and I am at perfect peace waiting on Him.” She replied, “As long as you’re peaceful about it, that’s all I need to hear, I won’t ask again.” When I left the appointment and got back in my car, I was thinking through our conversation and I remember making a very final decision and saying out loud, “Lord, I am willing to risk, in the natural, this idea of not ever having another child so that you will be the only one who can possibly get the glory from this situation when it happens.” You can’t imagine the doctor’s surprise when I called back less than a month later to tell her I was expecting— the entire office erupted in praise and I know the Lord was so glorified.

October was a whirlwind month for us. We moved from our home of more than 7 years to a rental home close to property we purchased where we planned to begin building a new home. We celebrated my daughter Holiday’s 9th birthday and started looking forward to the holiday season. I knew my cycle was a day or so late, but that happens every now and then and I was so busy, I just didn’t have the mental bandwidth to give it much thought. We hosted a family carnival in lieu of Halloween and most of my nieces and nephews had spent the night at our home. When all the kids got picked up to leave the following morning, my daughter ended up going home with a cousin. My husband left at the same time to run errands and I was alone in the house (this rarely ever happens). It was the fist time in weeks I had time to just be quiet and still. I remembered my cycle was still late and realized I had a pregnancy test in the drawer and decided to go ahead and take it. For 8 years, I had imagined what it would be like to see a positive test again. The second line appeared as quickly and as strongly as it had more than 9 years before when I was pregnant with my first. I was in total shock as time stood still. I sat on the couch and sobbed guttural tears of joy I had never before heard or experienced. Looking back, I know the Lord orchestrated that time to be by myself, with Him, so perfectly. After about an hour, I had enough composure to drive to the pharmacy to pick up several more tests— just to be certain. This time I got all digital tests and saw test after test blink, “Pregnant.”

“The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me. Your steadfast love, oh Lord endures forever. You never forsake the work of Your hands.” (Psalm 138:8)

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Part 4: Expecting: Learning to Rest in the Waiting

If you’re new to this story, I’ve been sharing our testimony of conceiving a 2nd child after more than 8 years of what doctors call Secondary Infertility. You can follow these links to read PART 1, PART 2, and PART 3.

In my last post, I talked about the importance of standing on the Word to receive the promises of God we find in Scripture. Today, I want to share with you all of the Scriptures and insights from the Word I personally stood on. Before I get to those specific Scriptures, I felt it was really important to share one of the keys the Lord showed me about standing on His Word.

“For as the rain comes down, and the snow from heaven, and do not return there, but water the earth, and make it bring forth and bud, That it may give seed to the sower and bread to the eater, so shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void, but it shall accomplish what I please, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.” Isaiah 55:10-11

It was at the end of 2016 when the Lord really prompted me to compile all the Scriptures I was standing on to believe for our second child. A few months later, as I was prepping and planting my flower beds for the spring season, the Lord began to talk to me more about how His Word, and the Scriptures I had been meditating on, take root in my heart. He really emphasized to me how much of the growth that happens in flowers and plants remains under the surface until we see the physical fruit growing above ground. What’s happening underground is real and absolutely crucial to the success of the flowers once they poke through the earth. In fact, without those established roots, the flower can’t receive the stability, strength, and nutrition it needs to survive. I started to think about how often we are tempted to only accept instant, complete, physical manifestation that we can see, touch and feel to believe His Word and promises are working in our lives. Sometimes we get so focused on seeing the fruit, that we miss the fact that God is causing our roots to grow deep. He wants us to be rooted and grounded in His love so that we can freely and fully receive ALL that He’s giving us, which is so much more than an instant manifestation of fruit. So many times if we just got the fruit, in no time, it would fall victim to the elements because we didn’t have the roots to hold onto it. The verse above in Isaiah ASSURES us that, even when we can’t see what’s happening under the surface, we can KNOW that His Word is working and producing because His Word NEVER returns to Him void— it ALWAYS accomplishes what He sent it to do. This was so freeing to me. No longer could I be disappointed with a negative pregnancy test again. That was fruit I knew would eventually manifest as my roots continued to grow deep in Him. What’s more, the longer and stronger my roots grew, the better the harvest that I was going to reap.

The Lord gave me so much peace and patience as I waited for the full manifestation of what I had been believing for. I got to the point pretty early on where I stopped questioning the waiting. A few months after I knew I was expecting baby #2 and I knew I wanted to share our testimony, I asked the Lord how I could explain the waiting to others, because I knew that would likely be a question many people would have. If we fully believed the Lord desired for us to have more children and that He was providing everything we needed, why did it take more than 8 years? He told me it took longer because I was willing to wait for everything He had for me. If it was just a baby I was after, I could have had it much earlier. However, I approached it, from the beginning, wanting EVERYTHING He had for me and it took longer to manifest the full harvest of everything He wanted to accomplish in my life in order for patience to have its full and perfect work, lacking nothing (James 1:2-8). If you find yourself in a position of waiting, don’t despise the process and the good gifts the Lord is perfecting in you during this time. It’s not our job to understand the end from the beginning— our part is to trust and rest in Him one day at a time, one step at a time. There is a Biblical precedent for the enemy causing a delay for our answer to prayer. Even so, we can rest confidently knowing that He will work everything for our good (Romans 8:28). We can trust the Holy Spirit knows our future and will lead us and guide us into all truth (John 16:13). I know I have shared this verse in nearly every post in this series, but it’s so applicable here again: “He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not, with Him, also freely give us all things?” (Romans 8:32) I was in it for the long haul and I wanted everything He had for me in this season— I wanted ALL that He wanted to add to me (Matthew 6:33). We will find ourselves in a place of peaceful, joyful confident expectation when we know that the Lord is working on our behalf even when we don’t see instant results. If you’re struggling to get to that place of quiet, confident expectation in Him, spend time getting to know the immensity of His love for you as revealed in Jesus and the amazing, free gift of His very own righteousness he has lavishly bestowed upon us.

For this reason I bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man, that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height—  to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen. ephesians 3:14-21







Part 3: Expecting: Learning to Rest in the Waiting

If you’ve been following along on this series, this is part 3 of our testimony on believing the Lord for a 2nd child after being unable to conceive for more than 8 years. At this part of the story, we are about 4 years in. We casually tried to get pregnant for about 3 years and then decided to seek medical advice. After being diagnosed with Secondary Infertility, we did some very low level fertility procedures for about 4 months which were unsuccessful. We made a decision to stop pursing medical treatment and to really just rest in the Lord and take time to focus on what He wanted to show us and how He was growing us during this time. You can read Part 1 of our Journey here: Part 1: Expecting: Learning to Rest in the Waiting and also, Part 2: Expecting: Learning to Rest in the Waiting. I will say that reading Parts 1 and 2 is critical to understanding our story and what I’m about to share.

Looking back now, it’s amazing to me how much the Lord did in my heart and mind through the one revelation of realizing that when I have Jesus, I already have everything. Nothing is missing and I’m not waiting on anything when I have Him. That revelation was so sustaining as the Lord began to pull me into deeper levels of intimacy with Him. As I chose to rest in Him, He was abundantly supplying me with grace, patience, and the endurance I needed to press in for more insight and understanding. The frustration I had felt, months prior, while going through fertility treatments had completely dissipated and given way to a joyful expectancy of what I knew the Lord was already doing in me. I found myself being able to effortlessly rejoice as I learned friends and family members were expecting. How could I NOT rejoice when I served the same Lord, the same good Father who withholds no good thing from me?! (Psalm 84:11)

As we were getting ready to celebrate the 2017 New Year, I started to press into the Lord about what He would have me focus on and believe Him for in the coming year. This is when I really felt a stirring that I could not let this place of contentment turn into a place of complacency. You see, I had spent the entire previous year meditating on how much I already had in Jesus. There’s no way to go through that experience without fully delving into what He accomplished for us at Calvary. Jesus’s work at the cross was so perfect and so complete— including how He, in all His wisdom and understanding, (Ephesians 1:7-10) identified us with His death, burial, and resurrection (Romans 6). His perfect work and righteousness qualified Him (and therefore us) with every blessing and His full inheritance (Romans 8:17). Even more, we don’t have to strive to inherit what Jesus won at the cross. Once the will is written, the inheritance is automatically dispensed at death. Jesus has already died for us. He died so that we could inherit what only He earned and deserved in His lifetime. In all other cases, inheritance is the consolation of death, but for Jesus, it was the motivation of His death. Jesus laid down all His rights at the cross so that we might have the right to become children of God and co-heirs with Christ. This was the joy that was set before Him at the cross (Hebrews 12:2).

Psalm 127:8 tells us that children (plural) are a blessing, an inheritance of the Lord. The Father began to show me that I bring Him the most glory when I fully lay hold of what Jesus accomplished for me at the cross so that not one ounce of His suffering was in vain. He started to kindle in me a righteous desire to fully possess the abundant life Jesus died to give me and to not leave anything on the table. I began to see that it was not the Father’s will or desire for me to become complacent or passive about something that He and Jesus paid an incalculable and immeasurable price for. He was glorified in the place of contentment I had come to in the previous year, but now He was showing me that His glory being manifested and fulfilled in our lives is part of Jesus’s reward here on the earth and I knew I wanted Him to get every last drop of reward that could be squeezed from my life. I can wholeheartedly say this was no longer about my desire for another child. This was now completely about Jesus being glorified in me receiving what He had already paid for. I knew that I wanted others to be able to share in our victory and taste and see how good the Lord is.

I sat down with my prayer journal and started writing down and looking up every verse in Scripture I could think of that had to do with the blessing of children, inheritance, resting in and waiting on the Lord. In the past, when I’ve been believing the Lord for something big— whether it be a husband, marriage, healing, finances, a supernatural breakthrough with work— I’ve found this to be such an effective course of action. I write out every verse and read through and meditate on them daily. As I’m studying the Word or listening to sermons, I’ll find more verses and add them to the list. Before long, my prayer journal had become nearly illegible with all the verses and notes taking up every available inch and margin. For more than 3 years, I mediated on these verses daily. The truths of these words seeped deeply into my heart and soul, becoming part of my very identity. In retrospect, I believe that taking time to do this was critical in my journey. In fact, I think there’s a really good precedent for it in Scripture. One of my favorite passages is found in John 15:1-7 about the Vine and the branches:

“I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.

“I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing.  If anyone does not abide in Me, he is cast out as a branch and is withered; and they gather them and throw them into the fire, and they are burned.  If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you.  By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be My disciples.”

Over and over in this passage, Jesus is imploring us to abide (rest, stay, wait, remain) in Him. Six times He says, “abide in Me,” until verse 7, He changes one word that makes ALL the difference. He says, “If you abide in Me and My WORDS abide in you, you will ask what you desire and it shall be done for you.” When we look at this passage as a whole, we see a process of abiding in the Vine, of abiding in Jesus. It speaks of time spent with Him, it speaks of intimacy, relationship, of getting to know who He really is, His character and nature. One of the best ways we can get to know Him is through His Word. John chapter 1 tells us that Jesus is the Word who became flesh and dwelt among us. When we approach reading His Word with hearts eager to learn more of who He is, we won’t walk away disappointed. The intimacy and relationship come first, but we eventually come to a point where we’ve meditated on His words for so long that the Holy Spirit has personally revealed each and every truth in those Scriptures to us. These words then belong to us, they can never be taken from us. The world can pick us up and turn us upside down, but those revealed words won’t be shaken from us. It’s from this position where we can confidently ask and be assured of our victory. One of the important facets of intentionally meditating on Scripture is to not allow it to become just another thing for us to do. We don’t want to robotically read through the verses and check it off of our “To Do” list for the day. Receiving from the Lord is not a formula. Instead of viewing it as something to DO, we must realize the goal is to saturate ourselves in what Jesus has already DONE for us.

Each day when I sat, read through, and meditated on those verses, I knew they were producing something valuable in me. I could feel my heart and mind being increasingly persuaded and confident that He who began this good work in me would carry it out to completion (Philippians 1:6). Whatever you’re believing the Lord for, I encourage you to start spending time in His Word and find Scripture verses that minister to you to meditate on. In Part 4 of our story, I will share with you all the Scriptures I stood on for the last number of years.

Part 2: Expecting: Learning to Rest in the Waiting

Today, I’m continuing to share our testimony of victory over Secondary Infertility. If you haven’t read it already, the first part of our story can be found HERE: Part 1: Expecting: Learning to Rest in the Waiting. In the last post, I left off with our decision to stop pursing fertility treatments and to instead, rely on the Lord and allow Him to work on our behalf. As I said in my earlier post, this time of pursing fertility treatments and options became a very chaotic time for me inwardly. I knew enough about resting in the Lord to know that anxiety, frustration, and overall lack of peace just aren’t reflective of how it looks when a Believer has surrendered everything to the Lord. His yoke is easy, His burden is light (Matthew 11:30) and that was the opposite of how I was feeling. Don’t get me wrong, it’s OKAY to have those feelings and the Lord isn’t condemning you for your emotions. It’s just that, often times, our emotions can be a signal to us that we need to pause whatever we’re doing and spend time renewing our minds to the truth of who God is and what His word says. For me, this involved going back over the last few years of what the Lord had been showing me about what it means to fully rest in Him and to stop trying to provide for myself what He had already freely given to us. There were two things that the Lord had ministered to me, years before, that I knew I needed to revisit: First, that understanding the free gift of righteousness given to us at the cross was the key to receiving everything from the Lord. Second, that rest would be final key to victory in every situation. In fact, I blogged about this in 2015 and this would have been around 7 months after we had stopped treatment. You can find that blog here: REST: Your Final Key to Victory in Every Situation.

As soon as we made the decision to stop pursing fertility treatments, but instead, wait on and rest in the Lord, I had an overwhelming sense of peace and calm. That whole year was just a journey of me realizing where I was trying and not resting. One of the main things the Lord showed me at this time was that I had become too focused on wanting another baby. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that He had put those desires in my heart, but at some point, I started giving more weight to the “gift” of another baby than I was to the ultimate Giver. The Holy Spirit started taking me through different verses in Scripture that talk about unjust weights and scales. Such verses are really prominent all throughout the book of Proverbs. In the street markets of Biblical times, goods were often weighed on scales. Your produce would be weighed on one side, while the market owners would place weights on the other side to determine the cost of your goods. Sellers could deceive buyers by adjusting those weights in their own favor and, thus, charging the buyer more than they should pay. All throughout Scripture, the Bible tells us that dishonest weights and unjust scales are an abomination to the Lord, that He detests those practices. God’s attitude towards those taking advantage of the poor is always extreme throughout Scripture. However, as I meditated through these verses, the Holy Spirit also began to show me how it’s possible to give an unjust amount of weight to whatever circumstances I might be facing. For me, it was my desire for another child. When we give too much weight to our circumstances, we lose sight of what’s on the other side of the scale. I got a picture in my heart of a double sided scale and realized that if Jesus was on one side of that scale, He alone outweighs everything else. When I have Jesus, I already have everything. I love what Romans 8:32 tells us, “He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not, with Him also FREELY give us ALL things?” Looking back at my prayer journal from this time, these are my specific words: “I realized that when I have Jesus, I have everything already. While children and babies are a special blessing, all things good (love, joy, peace, enjoyment, fulfillment) can be found in full supply in Him. There is nothing missing. If I’m looking at a scale and Jesus is on one side— He outweighs all else, no matter what I put on the other side. There is nothing missing. When I have Him, I am not in the waiting.”

I sat with this revelation for an entire year. It was a marked time of realizing how much I already had in Jesus and that, having Him, trumped having any other thing. It was a time for my focus and my gaze to be pulled back to Him, to His beauty, His goodness, His lovingkindnesses and tender mercies. It was a time of becoming, again, so satisfied and content in Him. His love was like a healing oil that seeped through every depth, crack, and crevice of my heart. It filled every desire, every longing. It completely dissolved my will to “try” and make things happen. It was a time of surrender, of letting go and giving back to Him the desires He first gave to me. By the end of that year, I had such peace, contentment and joy, I no longer felt like our family was “missing” something, not even another child. I knew I was right where the Lord wanted me to be. I had laid the deepest desire of my heart on His altar and He was glorified in my contentment. Interestingly enough, it was just at this point that He began to tell me to not allow my contentment to drift into complacency.

In the time since discovering baby #2 was on the way, the Lord has taken me back through the last 8 years and has been bringing into focus different nuggets or gems along the way that have really shaped this journey for me. At the time, most of them were just the next step on the path for me, but now I can look back and see them as hallmark truths or revelations which took me to the next level of faith. I think this concept is one of them. There are many times when we’re pursuing righteous things. Things that are in line with God’s will as seen in Scripture and even desires that the Lord Himself gave us to begin with. But sometimes, the Lord calls us to give those desires back to Him, to lay them on His altar. When we do this, He purifies our desires and gives them back to us in a way where we want these things for the same reasons He wants them for us. He cleans off the humanity and flesh and gives us back those desires, refined in the fire of His love.

This is a principle we can see clearly in the life of Abraham. From the time God told him to number the stars in the sky until Isaac was born, 25 years had passed (more than 3x longer than I waited for this second child). The Lord didn’t just promise Abraham a child, He promised him that, through this child, would come generations of people which would outnumber the grains of sand on the seashore. Then one day, God calls Abraham to make the ultimate sacrifice and to lay this child of promise back on the altar. When this story is recounted in Hebrews 11, the Bible shows us that Abraham was SO convinced of God’s love, goodness and promise, that he reasoned that, if nothing else, God would raise Isaac back from the dead. Abraham’s gaze was so fixed on the Father that he was willing to give back to the Lord this greatest gift. We know how this story ends, that at the very last moment, God provides a ram to be sacrificed instead. This wasn’t just a test, God took Abraham’s sacrifice (and willingness to sacrifice his one and only son) and refined it. This story would be forever included in the canon of Scripture and more than 1,700 years later, a carpenter’s son would find Himself and His calling as the ultimate Lamb and sacrifice of God in the words of this story— only this time there would be no substitutions. The moral of the story is this: when our hearts are completely convinced of His love and goodness, we can confidently lay our deepest desires back on His altar with full confidence that He’ll breathe His life into the ashes and bring back to life those desires, refined like gold, and indelibly write them onto our hearts.

At the end of a year focused on seeing Jesus as my everything, my desire for another child returned, but this time, it was wholeheartedly for His fame, His glory, His honor, and His renown. I wanted my life to be a testimony so others could taste and see just how good the Lord is.

Part 1: Expecting: Learning to Rest in the Waiting

As I inch closer to the 30 week mark of my second pregnancy, I want to take some time to share our story, our testimony of overcoming Secondary Infertility. While this is certainly a story dealing directly with one of the many facets of infertility, I think it’s a story for anyone who has had to wait for a promise to be fulfilled. It’s my journey of learning to rest in the waiting, of having my eyes opened to see the beauty and embrace the transformation that only comes with patient endurance. This first post does contain more of the medical details of our story because I know they are relevant to women who have walked through infertility. However, as our story goes on, I aim to focus on the spiritual truths the Lord showed me along the way about resting, waiting and receiving.

I had no idea Secondary Infertility was even a “thing” until I realized I had far exceeded the normal amount of time it should take to get pregnant a 2nd time. We got pregnant with our first child, Holiday, the first month we “tried.” I didn’t do anything special, I wasn’t even accustomed to tracking my cycle. I spent 5 minutes on Google and quickly gleaned that days 12-14 were our best chance for conceiving. Using only that info and the span of one month we were both shocked to see double pink lines so easily.

Backing up a few years, I had already had several abdominal surgeries, emergency surgery to fix ovarian torsion, received a diagnosis of endometriosis, was told I had chronically low progesterone that didn’t respond to treatment, though absolutely crucial to conceiving a child. Even more, the surgeon told me that I’d likely have a very difficult time conceiving. This was around 2007, I was still single, but I knew God had put marriage and children in my heart and I knew His Word and promises weren’t impacted by this diagnosis. The doctor prescribed nonstop birth control pills (to stop ovulation, conserve eggs, and keep endometriosis from being able to reproduce each month) and hormone therapy in hopes of “protecting my fertility” for when I was ready to have children.

I remained on the medication over the next year, but started having negative side effects like fatigue, hair loss, headaches and just not feeling well. I had been put on birth control at a very young age as it is a very common remedy to help manage difficult monthly cycles— even with not being used as a contraceptive. My doctor confirmed that the negative side effects were likely due to having been on birth control for too long and years of accumulated synthetic hormones could be hard on the body. However, she considered staying on the medications as the “lesser of two evils” when it came to trying to get pregnant down the road. I continued to take the medication until I really felt the Lord tell me I didn’t need it anymore. In the summer of 2008, He had been talking to me so much about the healing that Jesus provided at the cross (Isaiah 53:4-6). It started to become so real to me that, finally, one day, I felt the Lord tell me, “You know, you don’t need those anymore.” I immediately threw away the medication and never looked back. Within just a few weeks of going off the medication, I met my husband David. We we were first introduced in August, got engaged in October, married in March and were expecting by the following January! It was a whirlwind 15 months to say the least! [I want to pause and add a caveat here, I am very aware that I was not in a health crisis that was a life or death situation. While I certainly do believe the Lord is able to heal aside from medical intervention, I also believe it is Him who has given the good gift of medicine to us. It’s absolutely imperative that you seek wisdom in deciding what type of medical intervention to pursue with whatever health situation you might be facing].

My first pregnancy was uncomplicated and we had a healthy, beautiful baby girl. Close to her first birthday, we decided maybe it was time to start trying for baby #2. We had gotten pregnant so easily the first time, the thought of it being difficult after that never occurred to either of us. We kept “trying” but not putting pressure on ourselves or each other. After the first year with no results, I started to learn more about tracking my cycles, checking my temperature, using ovulation predictor kits, but two more years of trying all those things proved unsuccessful. I had mentally prepared myself that, at the 3 year mark, I would consult a doctor and that’s what we did.

I started with an OBGYN who was recommended by a friend. He supposedly had a good record of helping women conceive. We did all the basic, introductory fertility tests and labs. My body still wasn’t producing progesterone, but this particular doctor didn’t really see an issue with that. Ultrasounds looked good, my fallopian tubes weren’t blocked, there wasn’t any diagnosable reason as to why I wasn’t conceiving. The doctor decided to put me on 3 months of Femara which is an oral fertility medication (much like Clomid). In addition, I did injections of Ovidrel close to ovulation to give us a better chance of strong ovulation and, hopefully, conception. Just these very low level fertility methods were fairly time consuming and involved weekly, and sometimes bi-weekly, trips to the doctor. The doctor was extremely confident this would work for us because my body seemed to be responding so well. I was producing many large follicles on each ovary to the point that the doctor kept confirming with us that we were okay with potentially conceiving multiples. And yet, when I would have my 21 day labs drawn to confirm ovulation, it was clear I wasn’t ovulating and my body wasn’t producing a strong enough LH surge to initiate ovulation— even with being on fertility medications and injections. If you’ve been around the bend with fertility for any length of time, you know these can be very intangible things. No one really knows for sure why LH (Luteinizing Hormone) doesn’t surge when it should or how to motivate it to do so, but it’s impossible to conceive if this mechanism isn’t functioning. We kept doing these treatments for the next three months. I found myself getting increasingly frustrated and emotional. Each month, the conditions looked perfect for conception, but it just never happened. Before we had gone down the road of trying to medically address the fertility issues, I felt like I was peaceful and confident it would eventually happen. At this point, however, I felt like I was on a roller coaster of emotions and I knew this wasn’t where I wanted to be.

I started to have an inner battle that I was attempting to sort through. I felt confident in my understanding of the Word that children were a blessing and an inheritance (without qualification) bestowed on the earth (Pslam 127:3). I knew there was a healing provision already given to me for any insufficiency in my body (1 Peter 2:24). I was, and am, assured that it was the Lord’s will for us to be able to have children (I’ll share more of this understanding and specific Scriptures in an upcoming post). The Lord had also been showing me, over the course of several years, that understanding Jesus’ sacrifice at the cross, His free gift of righteousness given to us, was the key to walking in the manifestation of every blessing promised in Scripture. Children are a blessing from the Lord and Jesus alone qualified us with His sacrifice so that we might be partakers and co-heirs with Him of the blessings of the righteous (Romans 8:17). I knew our answer was tied up in learning how to rest in the finished work of the cross. I felt convinced of these things, but felt myself wondering if our journey should and would include more fertility treatments. The bottom line I was struggling with was this: How much do I do while I’m resting? How much is too much? How much is not enough? Can I just leave it in His hands and walk away?

After the three months of unsuccessful low level fertility interventions, my OBGYN referred us to one of the nation’s leading Reproductive Endocrinologists. My husband and I went in for the initial consultation. For some reason, even though my other doctor’s office had sent over my medical records, he didn’t receive them in time for my appointment. He talked to us about different fertility options and about halfway though the appointment, a nurse finally walked in with my medical records. He sat there and looked over everything. He saw the reports of the surgeries, the previous diagnoses, endometriosis and more. He closed the file folder, pushed the file across the desk and said, “Statistically, you have a 13% chance on conceiving outside of IVF.” He walked us through what that would look like. He shared how it’s important to only implant a single, genetically perfect embryo, how we could even choose gender if we wanted to get that specific. We listened, but both my husband and I had all the red flags and inner alarm bells going off shouting that this wasn’t the Lord’s plan for us.

I want to pause right here and say that I wasn’t opposed to fertility treatments or IVF. The point of my post is not to condemn anyone who made the decision to pursue those options or to assert that what we did was better. I just knew it wasn’t God’s plan for us. I had an immediate, complete absence of peace and have learned to recognize that as the Holy Spirit closing a door. With any decision in life, the MOST IMPORTANT THING is that you learn how to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit who is always leading and guiding us into all truth! He alone knows the end from the beginning and knows the right path for each of us to take. I have a friend who was able to conceive through IVF and give birth even after she had her uterus removed! The fact that this is even a possibility in our day and age is absolutely astounding and I don’t doubt for a second that the knowledge on how to do this came from the Lord Himself. When I think of her and her precious little boy, I am constantly overwhelmed with God’s goodness and lovingkindness. I am, by no means, here to discount someone else’s journey. What I do know, though, is IVF wasn’t the only way for me to have a second child. What I hope to share is what it looks like to decide to only pursue the Lord, His Word and resting in him to receive. In our current day and age of medical advancements, it has often felt to me like the road less traveled. Many times I wished I had someone to talk to who had already been on this journey of resting to receive. At the same time, I’m thankful for the growth that occurred because I had no other option, but to fully lean into the Lord. We left the appointment, got in the car, and both knew we were on the same page. IVF wasn’t going to be our story.

Driving away from that appointment, I had no idea I would be embarking on a 6 year journey of learning what it really means to trust and rest in the Lord in an area of such great desire. I had no idea how I would mature or how complete dependence on Him would pull me up to a level of intimacy with Him I had never known. All I knew was that the Lord was calling me to rest in His wisdom and to stop relying on the wisdom of man. I didn’t know I was going to become a prisoner of hope and that this would eventually give way to a a flood of joyful, confident expectation and unshakeable assurance in Him. So many good things were ahead of me and I had no idea that God had so much more than a baby in store for me. “He Who did not spare His Own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not, with Him, also freely give us all things?”(Romans 8:32). I thought the baby was the “all things,” turns out, He thinks bigger.

The Secret Place of Healing

Our Pastor recently published a book, The Prayer of Protection, which takes a very in-depth look at the ninety-first Psalm (links to book and study guide at the end of the post). While reading the book, I've been taking a lot of time to meditate on each of the verses contained in this powerful Psalm.  

At any given time, I always have a handful of theological questions before the Lord. Specific things that I want to gain more insight and wisdom on (James 1:5). I have asked the Lord a lot of questions about healing and how He works health in the life of a Believer. As I keep these questions before Him, I'm often amazed at the moments He starts illuminating a truth in Scripture that fills a 'hole' in my understanding. An instant download of wisdom and awareness from His Spirit.  Psalm 91 is known as THE psalm on protection and safety, I wasn't expecting to receive such a powerful insight into healing as I studied these verses

Psalm 91 starts out with, "He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty."  The Hebrew word used for "He who dwells" in Psalm 91:1 is actually "Yashab" which means "to sit, remain, inhabit." Dwelling in the secret place of the Most High is a picture of sitting, of resting, of making His presence your dwelling place.

It goes on in verses 2 and 3: I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress; my God in Him will I trust." Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the perilous pestilence.  

While all of these verses are PACKED with deeper truth and understanding, I felt a distinct drawing to really focus in on verse 4:

"HE SHALL COVER YOU WITH HIS FEATHERS

AND UNDER HIS WINGS YOU SHALL TAKE REFUGE."

You see, every time prior, when I've read Psalm 91, the imagery in my mind on this verse is always of a mother hen protecting her young chick.  It's totally applicable imagery here, but there's more to see.  As I meditated on this verse a little longer, I started to think about a different kind of "wings." 

In Malachi 4:2, we have a Messianic Prophecy- a passage of Scripture which prophesies, or foretells, something of the coming Messiah.  In this specific verse it says, "The Sun of Righteousness shall arise with healing in His wings." 

According to Jewish custom, men would have worn a "tallit" commonly known as a prayer shawl.  The hem of the tallit has fringes (tzitzit) that were a means to help remember the commandments. Numbers 15:38-39 has specific instructions regarding the tallit and the tzitzit: “Speak to the children of Israel: Tell them to make tassels on the corners of their garments throughout their generations, and to put a blue thread in the tassels of the corners. And you shall have the tassel, that you may look upon it and remember all the commandments of the Lord and do them, and that you may not follow the harlotry to which your own heart and your own eyes are inclined"

The significance of the shawl was in the tassels on the corners of the tallit and these corners were commonly referred to as "wings." Many Jews who walked the earth during Jesus' time believed that when the Messiah came, there would be special healing properties in His wings or in the corners of His prayer shawl because of the prophecy of Malachi 4:2 

There's a very familiar story in the Gospels commonly referred to as "The woman with the issue of blood." A woman who had a bleeding disorder for 12 years, who spent all her fortunes on doctors and found no cure for her disease.  To compound matters, her bleeding disorder made her "unclean" according to Jewish law which meant that she would have lived a very lonely, isolated and secluded life. To summarize- she was sick, broke and alone. Her label of "unclean" meant she could not enter the synagogue to worship, anyone who came into contact with her and her unclean status would also be rendered unclean.  But after twelve, long years of enduring an incurable disease, alone,  she heard about a man named Jesus who was healing people. Could he be the Messiah, the Sun of Righteousness?  Might there be healing in the wings of his prayer shawl?  This woman who was condemned, declared unclean, who could have been stoned to death on the scene (had anyone recognized her) for pressing through a bustling crowd decided it was worth the risk.  With people pressed around Jesus on every side, she came from behind and reached for the "fringe of His garment," the corner of His prayer shawl, and was instantaneously healed.  As she reached for His wings, she was in essence declaring that she believed He was, indeed, The Sun of Righteousness, the prophesied Messiah. 

Painting by James Tissot (1836-1902) of the Woman With the Issue of Blood reaching for the corner (wings) of Jesus' Tallit 

Painting by James Tissot (1836-1902) of the Woman With the Issue of Blood reaching for the corner (wings) of Jesus' Tallit 

 

Her silent declaration of faith made Jesus stop in His tracks, turn around to see from where the power went out from His body. The nameless woman with the issue of blood found the secret place of healing under the wings of the Almighty, the Messiah. 

She wasn't the only one. Mark 6:54-56 reads, "And when they got out of the boat, the people immediately recognized Him and ran about the whole region and began to bring the sick people on their beds to wherever they heard He was. And wherever He came, in villages, cities, or countryside, they laid the sick in the marketplaces and implored Him that they might touch even the fringe of His garment. And as many as touched it were made well." 

In Malachi 4:2, "The Sun of Righteousness shall arise with healing in His wings," the word used here for "wings" is the Hebrew word, "kenepaw." It's the same exact word used in Psalm 91:4, "He shall cover you with His feathers and under His wings you shall take refuge." 

When we dwell (sit down, rest, MAKE OUR INHABITANCE) in the place of the Most High, under the shadow of the Almighty, He covers us with His feathers and we take refuge under His wings.  It's a beautiful picture of restfully dwelling in a place of healing. 

While Jesus walked the earth, people longed for a one-on-one experience with Him. They longed for the opportunity to physically touch the fringe of His tallit.  But today, we as Believers get to DWELL, we can inhabit the place of His presence. We never have to leave. As we daily renew our minds to the truths of Psalm 91, we get to live perpetually in this place of healing.  See yourself today covered by His feathers, finding refuge under His wings. I love Psalm 23:6 in the Amplified, "Surely goodness, mercy and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life; And the house of the Lord and His presence shall be my dwelling place." 

I want to take this thought one step further.  When we are praying for the sick to receive healing, what we are doing is inviting them with us into this secret place of healing.  It's not about my power, my faith or my ability.  In and of myself, I have nothing to offer you, but I know someone who does.  Come and meet my Jesus, come sit down with me under His wings in this secret place of healing. 

If you want to join me on the in-depth study of Psalm 91, I can't recommend this book enough. You can find the book HERE and the coordinating study guide HERE

 

 

 

 

It Takes a Church: Political Divisiveness Within the Body of Christ

It's no secret- our nation AND our church have gone through a tough political season.  We are a nation clearly divided, but sadly, we are also a church clearly divided.  Leading up to the election, I had the thought, "I just don't understand how you can be a Christian and vote Democrat."  While at the same time, hearing other friends (who I respect) declare, "There's no way you be a Christian and vote Republican."  But when I took some time to stop reacting emotionally and attempt to listen and ask non-confrontational questions, my perspective grew.  What I found were Believers on all political sides who were full of compassion for different groups of people. Who they were drawn to help and defend differed largely on their individual life experiences and even their geographical locations.  I discovered members of the Body of Christ in every political camp who felt like their Christian faith was informing their political decisions and their vote.  

Within the umbrella of Christianity, we have tens of thousands of different denominations.  Most denominations were formed around how an individual or group of individuals interpret the Scriptures which Christianity deems to be the authoritative and inspired Word of God.  While most of us believe that the denomination we adhere to is the "most right," in reality, there are right and good elements in most every Christian denomination.  Jesus is SO perfect and His beauty is so multi-faceted, different denominations tend to focus on different facets of who God is.  From an outsider's view, I think it often seems that Christians must be pretty schizophrenic.  How can we all share the same Biblical text and yet have so many different interpretations of what it means? 

Let me challenge you here with a thought.  At His ascension, Jesus didn't commission Believers to ONLY reach out to one group of people, in one area.  He commissioned Believers to take the Gospel to ALL the world, making disciples and baptizing them into the Name of Jesus.  It's going to take more than the American Evangelicals who voted Republican-- it's going to take the WHOLE church.  

We need all Believers, with all different life experiences and perspectives in order to reach the whole world.  

As I was thinking through this idea, I was reminded of the Four Gospels-- the first four books of the New Testament, Matthew, Mark, Luke and John.  In these books, we have four first-hand accounts of men (disciples) who walked alongside Jesus during His earthly ministry.  Those outside of the Christian faith often fall back on the idea that the Bible can't be true because of its inconsistencies or contradictions, often pointing to these four books of the Bible, but let's take a closer look. For approximately three years, these men watched Jesus day and night.  If you take any four people and have them witness a 3-year long event, their reports, what stood out to them, the exact order in which the events happened are not going to be identical.  Additionally, these men came from different occupations, backgrounds and life's experiences: we have a tax collector, a physician and a prophet in the mix.  Even more, each of these Gospels was written to a different group of people and each of the Gospel writers drew from different stories and evidences which would specifically appeal to their audience. Matthew wrote to the Jewish community, Mark wrote to the Romans, Luke (a Gentile convert, our only non-Jewish writer) wrote primarily to the Greeks and John wrote to all Believers. What's important to see is that the goal of all four of these writers was the same- to show their audience that Jesus was their long-awaited Messiah.

 And God saw fit that, by inspiration of the Holy Spirit, all four of these accounts would be included in the the final, authoritative cannon of Scriptures which have endured to this day.  

Let's move on from this realization with a new perspective. When a fellow Believer has a different political viewpoint than you do, be quick to recognize and celebrate that God has wired them differently with a purpose. Be quick to respect them as a brother or sister in Christ; honor the gift of God within them. Be quick to remember that we need the whole Body.  If you think someone is truly in error, pray for them.  I promise it will have far greater impact and power than calling them out on social media.  Challenge yourself to remember that your own viewpoints don't define "normal," but rather are specific to your calling and what the Lord has put in front of you to do. 

Just like the Gospel writers, the important thing is that we all have the same goal- to tell the world that Jesus is the Messiah and the only means by which we can attain eternal life. 

How we walk this out is going to be unique to every Believer-- and that's a good thing!  C.S. Lewis once surmised that each of us was created to see a different facet of God's beauty.  Something that no one else could see in quite the same way for the purpose of blessing all worshippers, through all eternity, with an aspect of God they could not otherwise see.  

Let's begin to recognize the beauty of Christ in each other, the marvelous miracle that is His Body. 

1 Corinthians 12

"For as the body is one and has many members, but all the members of that one body, being many, are one body, so also is Christ. For by one Spirit we were all baptized into one body- whether Jews or Greeks, whether slaves or free- and all have been made to drink into one Spirit. For in fact the body is not one member, but many." verses 12-14

"The eye cannot say to the hand, "I have no need of you"; nor again to the feet, "I have no need of you." No, much rather, those members of the body which seem to be weaker are necessary. And those members of the body which we think to be less honorable, on these bestow greater honor." verses 21-23a

"There should be no schism in the body, but that the members should have the same care for one another and if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; or if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it." verses 25-26

Don't Give Up on a Good Opinion of the Lord!

Today, I want to share a quick encouragement for anyone is who is going through a difficult time or believing for something specific from the Lord.  The more I get to know the Father, the more I see Jesus revealed to me, the more I realize that the surefire way to walk in victory is to get to a place of rest in Christ.  I'm not talking about sitting around and taking a nap, I'm talking about Biblical rest.  Where your mind is at ease as you have cast your worries and cares onto the Lord. Where you have a knowing that you are depending on the Father's goodness and kindness.  That no matter how hard the storm is raging in your life, you have a peace that surpasses all understanding actively protecting your heart and mind as you walk down the path God has prepared for you, fully aware that the battle belongs to the Lord. 

Several years ago, I heard Pastor Joseph Prince ministering on Abraham.  He specifically pointed out Romans 4:20,

"He did not waver at the promise of God through unbelief, but was strengthened in faith, giving glory to God, and being fully convinced that what He had promised He was also able to perform." 

Abraham stood steadfast in his faith by giving glory to God.  When we think of glory, thoughts of grandeur, splendor and honor come to mind.  However, the Greek word used for "glory" in this verse is actually "Doxa." When you look this one up in Strong's Concordance, you'll find it at #1391. Doxa: Opinion (always good in the New Testament), hence praise, honor, glory.  Abraham stood steadfast in his faith by keeping a good opinion of the Lord.  

If you think through Abraham's life, he had so many reasons to throw in the towel while waiting for the earthly manifestation of God's promises to him.   For starters, just the length of time from when God told him that his descendants would outnumber the stars in the sky until Isaac's birth was 25 years.  That's a long time to wait for a baby!  Not to mention the fact that Abraham was 100, yes you read that right, ONE HUNDRED years old by the time Isaac was born and Sarah was 90!  To add to the list of potential disqualifications, Abraham lied, he and Sarah tried to take matters into their own hands and produce an heir by Sarah's maid.  As you can see, there were lots of reasons that Abraham could have shifted his focus away from God and onto himself and his own shortcomings, but he didn't.  Abraham kept his focus on God, on His goodness and faithfulness. He stood steadfast in the faith giving glory to God, judging Him willing, able, capable and faithful to fulfill His Word.  

So how can we take this lesson from Abraham and apply to our own lives?  Ever since I saw this truth revealed in the Word, any time my husband and I have been facing a difficult situation, I make the decision to have a good opinion of the Lord.  While we have walked through times of hardship, frustration or uncertainty, I've realized my mind can be very noisy.  Noisy with thoughts, concerns, worries and questions.  Each and every time one of those noises starts playing in my mind, I stop and say out loud, "Lord, I choose to have a good opinion of You!"  Those words are so etched into my heart, because when I speak them, I am speaking words of faith.  I am reminding myself that God is willing, able, capable and faithful to fulfill His Word and His promises to me.  When I say, "Lord, I choose to have a good opinion of You," it brings my soul (my mind, will and emotions) into alignment with the TRUTH my born-again spirit already knows-- that God is for me and HE is fighting this battle for me!  Jesus Himself is at the right hand of the Father making intercession for me.  When I speak out, "Lord, I choose to have a good opinion of You," it brings my whole being- body, soul and spirit- into a place of rest in Christ.  And I'll tell you what-- when we have walked through hard situations putting this revelation into practice, we have seen swift and supernatural manifestations of God's promises to us. This is the result of being at rest in Christ.  When you stop working and trying to figure it all out and rest in Him, then you will find Him fighting your battle for you at full force. 

There were days when I would find myself stopping and speaking this out 500 times.  Other days it might just be a thought here or there, but today I encourage you to call every thought contrary to the Word of God captive to the obedience of Christ.  Remember what Jesus did on the cross for you.  He took your place, He gave you His perfect righteousness and made you a co-heir and beneficiary with Him of every blessing and promise contained in the Word. So go out today with a good opinion of the Lord, resting in Christ and see God's promises fulfilled in your life. 

Activating God's Promises For Protection, Part 2

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Just a few days ago I began Part 1 of this series on Activating God's Promises For Protection: Keeping You and Your Family Safe in Increasingly Dark Times. If you have not already done so, I strongly encourage you to go back and read this first post as it lays a foundation for what I want to share with you today.  

As I was thinking about this most recent mass shooting in Orlando, my mind began rewinding back to April 20, 1999 when the whole country sat in front of their TV screens, utterly stunned and shocked by the events unfolding in Columbine, Colorado. Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold, two high school students, murdered 13 people and injured dozens more before turning their guns on themselves. Looking back over the past 25 years, there is a clear upward trend of these instances of violence.  They are continually escalating in number, frequency and brazenness.  For decades, terrorism was something we were only remotely familiar with; something that only happened someplace else.  We were far removed from their direct impact; we felt distant, safe and secure in the USA.  After all, aren't we a world super power with a mighty army?

 It's evident that the Unites States of the 90's is not the same Untied States we live in today.  Today we live in a world where violent attacks can seemingly happen anywhere (elementary schools, high schools, malls, movie theaters, nightclubs, churches) and at any moment.  While many of our aggressors are foreign terrorists, it is now becoming apparent that this intense level of hate can be manifested through those you might least suspect. While we would hope for our government to be a united front, combating the enemy and leading our nation to victory over our oppressors, we have never been more divided. Yes, our nation has seen its share of turmoil, even a Civil War, but no longer is there just a division of North and South, Republican and Democrat. These long-standing political parties are imploding from within as "We the People" no longer agree on the very basic premises of right and wrong.  We are a divided country and as we have long heard, "United we stand, but divided we fall."  

 I'm not taking time to articulate this grim picture in an effort to bring fear, but rather for us to take heed and realize, we can NO LONGER depend on our government, our armed forces or our society for safety and security.  We are living in a day and age where we must depend WHOLLY on Jesus for everything. This is not a call to alarm, but a moment in which we as the Body of Christ can begin to look on the days ahead with confidence and expectancy. Why confidence and expectancy? Because Romans 5:20 tells us, "But where sin increased, God's remarkable, gracious, gift of grace has surpassed it and increased it all the more." 

God has brought us to a secure place and He is calling us to step out in assurance, boldness and confidence in Him, in His goodness and in His ability.  And the only way we can have this level of blessed assurance in Him, is to know Him.  I'm not just talking about believing with your heart and confessing with your mouth that He is Lord, salvation is certainly the first step, but there's so much more. I'm talking about a real, living and breathing relationship with Him. One in which you begin to know the character and nature of who God really is.

If I moved to a new neighborhood and briefly met the family next door, I can see them and know and confess, "Hey, that's my neighbor."  It's just a simple fact that our homes happen to be in close proximity to one another.  Now, if this family comes over and says, "I know we just met, but we're going to take your little daughter Holiday over to our house for a few hours, we'll send her home later."  Do you think for one moment I'm going to allow her to go with this neighbor who I just met and know nothing of?  Of course not! For all intents and purposes, they are essentially strangers to me and to her.  It's not that I automatically assume that these are bad people who intend to harm my child, in fact that may have seemed completely normal and lovely in the very brief, few minutes I did speak with them.  However, the fact remains, I only spoke with them for a short time and I have no substantial personal experience with them.  In order for me to feel confident sending my young child to their home, unaccompanied, I would have to have known them over a period of time with first-hand personal experience that gives me full confidence they are good, capable and trust-worthy people.

Friends, I appeal to you that the same is true of the Father.  You can't possibly know the Lord aside from spending time with Him, through first-hand, personal experience. It's only when we truly know Him, understand His true nature and begin to grasp the depths of His boundless love for us, that we can begin to have the confidence to take Him at His Word.

For centuries, religion (even religion disguised as Christianity) has taught wrongly of the character and nature of the Father. For many people, when they think of God, they think of a judgmental perfectionist whose standards they could never attain to.  Their idea of who God is, is largely distorted by stories and images of the Old Testament without an in-depth understanding of how Jesus fully met the demands of God's justice and holiness for us, paying the price to ransom and redeem all of humanity.  

Let's look again at this verse from Romans 5 that I just quoted above, "But where sin increased, God's remarkable, gracious, gift of grace has surpassed it and increased it all the more." This verse is saying that, where we see a lot of sin, that there's even MORE grace!  Some translations say, "But where sin increased, grace super abounded!"  

The original Greek word being used for "abounded" is huperperisseuó.  Huper = Beyond. It is where we derive our English word, "Hyper." Perisseuo = Abundantly exceeding; beyond what already exceeds; ultra; (super) abounds.  

So according to the Word of God, even though we are living in a dark world where sin is ever increasing, we can have full expectancy that grace is overflowing and increasing even more abundantly and excessively than sin.

So what is grace exactly? The Greek word used here in this verse is, "Charis."  Charis can be defined as undeserved, unearned, unmerited favor.  The language here paints a picture of God freely extending, leaning towards His people, to give Himself away, to bless them.

What does this have to do with our promises of protection in the Bible?  Well...everything.  Every blessing, every promise we see in the Word belongs to the Believer, not because of our own good works, but SOLELY because of Jesus' good works. For grace to be grace, it has to be undeserved, unearned and unmerited. Jesus led a perfect, holy, sinless life here on the earth.  He carried out the Father's plan for redemption to the uttermost—freely laying down His life in the most horrific way.  As He hung on the cross, He endured separation from the Father as all sin, for all time, for all humanity, was laid upon Him.  That sin was all judged at Calvary, in the body of Jesus- that judgement brought forth every type of sickness and disease (the effects of sin) to the point where Jesus was no longer recognizable as a human being (Isaiah 52:14).  Through the power that only God's Son could exert, He hung onto His own life and didn't give it up until He had fully completed His earthly mission.  He cried, "FINISHED," and breathed His last breath when He was ready. Then, He rose again, victorious over sin and the grave.

But that's not all He did.  At the cross, He made a divine exchange. He took His perfect record, His flawless report card, His very own righteousness (right-standing before the Father) and made it freely available to anyone who will call upon His Name and receive His payment for sin as their own. He requires no good deeds from you, there's nothing you can do to earn His salvation. In fact Ephesians 2 tells us that while we were still dead in our sins, Christ died for us.  He loved you with an everlasting love while you were still a sinner. Before you had an opportunity to do any good thing, 2 Corinthians 5:21 says that, "God made Him who knew no sin to be made sin for us that we might become the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus."  (If you're looking for more understanding of what Christ accomplished for us, I cover this topic in much more detail with this post, The One Man.)

Throughout most of the Old Testament, up until the time of the crucifixion, the world was living under old covenants or agreements with God.  Those covenants were based on agreements between God and mankind.  If mankind obeyed God's commands, they were blessed, if not, they were cursed.  The beauty of the Gospel is that when Jesus laid down His life for us, He took our place in a new covenant and made that covenant between God and Himself, no longer dependent on mankind.  Our only part is to believe that Jesus made the payment for our sin, and to receive that payment as our own. When we do this, we are now seen as being IN Christ (Ephesians 2:6)—we are part of His body.  Every bad and corrupt thing that exists on the earth today is a result of the sin that first entered the earth when Adam first sinned in the Garden of Eden.  Jesus took every curse upon Himself at the cross so the curse might be reversed over God's people here on the earth.  When we lay hold of the promises and blessings in Scripture, we are bringing God delight, reminding Him of the perfect sacrifice of His Beloved Son. As we partake of these unearned, undeserved, unmerited blessings, we are declaring that the curse of sin has been completely reversed for the people of God. We esteem Jesus the most, bring Him the most glory, when our lives reflect the victory He sacrificed so dearly for.

My prayer for each of you is that these promises of protection in the Bible will come alive to you, that your eyes will be enlightened to see everything Jesus secured for you at the cross. I pray each of you will begin to comprehend why these promises belong to you and why it honors Jesus' sacrifice when you lay hold of those promises.  Today I talked a lot about the role of God the Father and His Beloved Son, Jesus.  In the third and final part of this blog series, we'll take a look at the role of the Holy Spirit and the tremendous gift we've been given for protection on earth through Him. If today's post left you wanting to understand more of the true nature of God, one of my favorite ministers, Andrew Wommack, has tons of free teachings and resources available on his website as well as a book, True Nature of God.  I also cannot recommend enough my Pastor, Joseph Prince's book, Destined to Reign.

 

 

 

 

Activating God's Promises For Protection, PART 1

Last Sunday morning, I got to church early and pulled out my phone as I waited for service to start. Immediately I saw headlines flooded with news of the mass shooting in Orlando which had taken place in the wee hours of the morning.  I immediately felt a stirring in my heart as the Lord was reminding me of what He was wanting me to share on the blog about activating the promises of protection we find in the Word of God. 

Just two Sundays ago, I was a split second away from an accident that could have potentially been life-altering for me, and maybe even could have ended my life.  I was traveling in my SUV and stopped at a red light, there was one car stopped in front of me.  The light turned green and the car in front of me made it's way through the intersection and as I started to make my way through the intersection, something horrific started to unfold out my driver side window.  A car to the left of me had fully stopped at his light which was now red, but behind him came a second car at full speed who obviously didn't realize there was a car was stopped at the red light (I can only guess the driver of the 2nd car was on a cell phone or somehow completely distracted from the road.)  The speeding car barreled into the stopped car, pushing it rapidly into the intersection as I came through.  I looked out my driver's window and both cars were coming straight for my door.  This was a very small space, a tight intersection, I had nowhere to go.  I pushed the gas pedal of my SUV all the way to the floor and miraculously wasn't hit by the two cars now in the middle of the intersection.  

 

This whole accident happened on Sunday, June 11.  Just two days earlier,  I was home with my daughter Holiday and my husband David was in California for business and would be flying home later that night on a red eye.  I had plans to take dinner to a neighbor with a new baby that evening and the next day we were hosting a dinner party so I spent the entire day in the kitchen prepping, cooking and baking.  While doing so, I was listening to a sermon from our Senior Pastor, Joseph Prince.  At the end of the message, Pastor Prince always prays a blessing over the congregation.  When this part came, I was busy washing dishes, but I felt a strong prompting from the Holy Spirit to stop what I was doing and to actively receive this blessing.  Several times during this blessing, Pastor Prince spoke specifically about protection for you and your family.  I plugged into the prayer, lifting my hands and praying in the Spirit. In my own logic, I thought maybe I was receiving something for David who would be flying later that night.  But as I prayed on in the Spirit, in my mind I could see myself, David and Holiday and then immediately saw my parents and started praying over them and then my sister Jenn, her husband Nathan and their family as well.  Within less than ten minutes of receiving that blessing, I got a text message from my sister that my mom had just been in a car accident.  She believed my mom was okay, but that was all she knew at the time.  My mom did walk away, unharmed, from what could have been a much more serious accident.  A few days later my brother-in-law Nathan was also rear-ended and then my "almost" accident occurred a few days after that.  

One of the most remarkable, life-altering revelations the Holy Spirit has given me over the past 15 years of my life is how to hear His voice, the voice of the Holy Spirit.  You see, according to John 16:3, it says that, "When the Spirit of Truth comes, He will guide you into all truth, for He will not speak on His own authority, for whatever He hears He will speak, and He will declare to you the things that are to come."  Being able to discern the leading of the Holy Spirit is of paramount importance if we are to take hold of the promises of protection spoken of in the Word of God.  

But before we can even get to hearing the voice of the Holy Spirit, which I will cover in a separate post later this week, first we must understand what the Word of God says about the Believer and our protection here on earth.

As with any promise in the Word, we must see the promise,  believe with our heart and confess with our mouth to lay hold of that promise.  Romans 10:9-10, "That if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.  For with the heart one believes unto righteousness, and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation."  There is a right belief that must happen first. As we are reading the Word, the Holy Spirit comes alongside of us and illuminates the Scripture to us, He changes our minds and thoughts to line up with the mind of Christ. As our beliefs change, what we speak begins to change too. This is all part of a life-long process as a Christian of becoming more and more like Jesus Himself. This changing of our minds to be more like Christ is actually the very Biblical definition of "Repentance!"  It is simply changing our minds to see things as God sees them. 

So what does the Word actually say about protection for the Believer? I want to point out that some of these verses were spoken to specific people in Scripture in specific circumstances.  However Christ Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever (Hebrews 13:8,) and it all reveals the nature of the Father to protect His children.

I know there will also be some who believe that even though there are promises in Scripture, God wills when He will or won't make those promises available to you.  There's an idea that He may cause or allow something bad to happen in your life in order to teach you a lesson.  I will tell you what the Word says, it says this in John 10:10, "The thief (Devil) does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy.  I have come that they may have life and that they may have it more abundantly." So if a situation in your life is stealing, killing and destroying you or your family, you can rest assured it is not the Lord, He is bringing you LIFE and life MORE abundantly!  

I walked through a life-threatening illness with a friend who was really struggling with this understanding, believing God wanted him to be sick in order to make him more like Christ.  As I walked with this person, I prayed the Lord would give me the words to speak.  The Lord said this to me, "Do you believe I am complete in and of Myself?"  Of course I said, "Yes Lord!"  To which He replied, "Then why would I need anything from the enemy, whether it be poverty, sickness or lack to perform or perfect any good thing in the life of a Believer?"  WOW!  That word form the Lord forever sealed this question for me.  His Word and the work of the Holy Spirit are MORE than enough to perform and perfect every good thing in the life of a Believer. He needs NOTHING from the enemy or his arsenal which are merely the effects of sin here on the earth.   

So I hope that you will open your heart up as you read these Scriptures on the protection afforded to the Believer.  Allow the Holy Spirit to reveal to you the Father's heart, character and nature and later this week, we'll continue with more specifics of how to tap into these promises and hear the voice of the Holy Spirit: 

2 Thessalonians 3:3 But the Lord is faithful, and He will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one. 

Deuteronomy 31:6 Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you. 

Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand. 

Psalm 51:11 But let all who take refuge in You be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them, that those who love Your Name may rejoice in You. 

Psalm 34:19 The righteous person may have troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all. 

Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in time of trouble. 

Psalm 57:1 Have mercy on me, my God, have mercy on me, for in You I take refuge. I will take refuge in the shadow of Your wings until the disaster has passed. 

Psalm 59:1 Deliver me from my enemies, O God; be my fortress against those who are attacking me. 

Psalm 138:7 Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You preserve my life.  You stretch out Your hand against the anger of my foes; with Your right hand You save me. 

Psalm 140:4 Keep me safe, LORD, from the hands of the wicked; protect me from the violent, who devise ways to trip my feet. 

2 Samuel 22:3-4 My God is my rock, in Whom I take refuge, my shield and the horn of my salvation. He is my stronghold, my refuge and my Savior--from violent people You save me. I called to the Lord Who is worthy of praise, and have been saved from my enemies. 

Psalm 23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.  He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His Name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.  You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over.  Surely goodness, mercy and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life; And the house of the Lord and His presence shall be my dwelling place.  

Psalm 121 I will lift up my eyes to the hills- from whence comes my help? My help comes for the Lord, who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep. The Lord is your keeper; The Lord is your shade at your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night. The Lord shall preserve you from all evil; He shall preserve your soul. The Lord shall preserve your going out and and your coming in from this time forth, and even forevermore. 

Psalm 91 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him will I trust." Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the perilous pestilence. He shall cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you shall take refuge; His truth shall be your shield and buckler. You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day, nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness, nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday. A thousand may fall at your side and ten thousand at your right hand; But it shall not come near you. Only with your eyes shall you look and see the reward of the wicked. Because you have made the Lord, who is my refuge, even the Most High, your dwelling place, no evil shall befall you, nor shall any plague come near your dwelling; For He shall give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways.  In their hands they shall bear you up, lest you dash your foot against a stone. You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra, the young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot. "Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him on high because he has known My Name. He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him and honor him. With long life I will satisfy him, and show him My salvation." 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Leaving a Legacy of Faith for Your Family

It was exactly one year ago.  I walked into my Grandmother's home in a quaint, small town in western Pennsylvania and for the first time, she wasn't waiting excitedly for me.  Everything was in the exact place I'd expect it to be.  Her glasses and magnifying glass there on the kitchen table which was meticulously protected with her plastic-ish lace table cloth.  Her favorite Bible on the end table beside her chair in the living room along with a handwritten list of all her favorite television preachers with notes of the time and channel they were on.  Every earthly possession, in each room, exactly as she would have left it.  It was as if she was just in another room, as if she had stepped out for but a moment and would return at any second.  And while she had indeed stepped out, this time she had crossed over to the other side of eternity.  Surrounded by her earthly possessions, I was overwhelmed with how much I already missed her earthly presence.  

Today marks one year since I last said goodbye to my "Grandma Joyce."  She graduated to heaven on May 14, 2015 and we had her funeral services just a few days later.  One hot, Texas, summer day in August of 2014, I vividly remember pulling into my garage and putting my car into park. I had been talking to the Lord and praying for various family members and the Lord very gently told me that this would be Grandma's last year on earth.  It was a strong sense and knowing that He wasn't referring to just the year 2014, but before August 2015, she would have already moved to heaven.  I remember sitting there in my car, texting my sisters and sharing with them what the Lord had spoken to me, hoping I would be wrong, but grateful for the opportunity to spend those 9 months more purposefully. 

The day before the funeral service, I had thought a lot about what I would want to share of my memories of Grandma and what her life meant to me and to all of us.  Her life (Like most of our's) wasn't wrapped up in one remarkable thing she did or accomplished for the Lord.  It was an everyday kind of greatness of loving the Lord and allowing that love to flow through her to the many she encountered.  She was nurturing and generous, but the most important thing she did was continue a legacy of faith for our family. She loved the Lord, she loved her family and she wanted her family to know how much the Lord loved them.  

Several years ago, my niece Emme decided she wanted to be baptized, she was only four or five at the time, but she knew what it meant and was determined she was ready.  My dad is a pastor and had the privilege of baptizing her and it was a really special moment for our entire family.  I watched with tears in my eyes as he explained to her the symbolic and public profession of her faith, of what water baptism meant.  A verse Paul spoke to Timothy overwhelmed my heart in that moment,

 "I remember your genuine faith, for you share the faith that first filled your grandmother Lois and your mother, Eunice. And I know that same faith continues strong in you."  2 Timothy 1:5.  

You see, we have a family legacy of Believers, of followers of Christ.  As far back as I can look on my family tree, I see people who loved the Lord.  My Grandmother continued that legacy.  She passed it on to my father who passed it on to me and now I have the awesome privilege of passing it on to my own daughter. Generation upon generation growing in love and revelation of the Lord.  

As I was preparing my notes for the funeral service, I began really contemplating this awesome legacy of faith I have been grandfathered into. Often as I'm meditating on the Word and how it applies to life, the Holy Spirit will give me an analogy and this time was no exception.  You see, when my sisters and I were young, one of our favorite summertime activities was to play a game we called "Whirlpool," in our little, aluminum, above-ground swimming pool. We would get everyone to line up around the inner perimeter of the pool and walk around the circle to get the water all moving in the same direction.  At first, it was like moving your legs through quick sand, fighting the standing water, getting it to move.  But before long, with all of us working together, we had a current started and it was getting easier.  By the time we were finished, you would just pick up your legs and enjoy the ride.  There was no stopping it.  We would try to grasp with white knuckles onto the side walls of the pool but could only manage to hold on for a moment or two before the current swept us away again.  The only way to get it to stop was if you turned around and very purposefully stood in the water and held on for as long as you could to slow it down.  This was only a remote possibility in our teen years- as children we would often have to call for an adult to rescue us from the current we had created!   

Having a family legacy of faith is very much so like our little whirlpool.  At some point in my family history, someone pioneered and trudged through dark waters, believing the Lord and His Word.  They had a testimony, a story of faith, a story of how God showed Himself on their behalf.  A story of how Jesus walked beside them and carried them through the storm. They passed that story and that growing love for the Lord onto the next generation and to the next and to the next. Pretty soon there was a current of faith in my family and by the time I came along, I've pretty much just gotten to pick up my feet and enjoy the ride.  My parents, my grandparents, my great-grandparents and those before them set a course for me.  They sailed through storms I will never have to face.  The current of this legacy of faith is so strong, someone would have to be very purposeful and strong-willed to get out.  Even if you try to hang onto the sidewalls of the pool, sooner or later the love and grace of God is just so great it sweeps you back in again.  

You see, this very, "little" thing of passing Jesus on to your family is pretty much the greatest legacy you could ever leave.  And Grandma did that quite well.  

Some grandparents have the resources to leave lucrative inheritances, vacation homes and trust funds.  My grandma left me a legacy that will carry me from this earthly life to the very River of Life.  As I heard my dad once say, Grandma is not in my past only, but in my future.  And not just Grandma, but all of those who have gone before, who have fought the good fight of faith.  And somewhere at the end of this all, I will be standing face to face with Jesus Himself and I will have a family legacy to thank for the opportunity of seeing all of heaven and earth's dreams fulfilled in that one moment as I gaze at the very face of the One who gave me everything.

Me with Grandma Joyce 

Me with Grandma Joyce 

Holiday with Grandma Joyce, November 2014

Holiday with Grandma Joyce, November 2014

REST: Your Final Key to Victory in Every Situation

When people think of overcoming an obstacle, no matter the type or magnitude of the situation, they don't often (naturally) see "Rest," as a key tactic or sound strategy.  I don't know about you, but I know for me, there are marked moments the Lord speaks to me in such a precise manner, that it changes everything.  Marked moments that are so indelibly carved into my memory that I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing the moment I heard.  One of these moments for me was when I heard the Lord say, "Rest will be your final key to victory in every situation."  

During the time in my life when the Lord was first speaking to me on His idea of what rest is and how it applies to my life, I was on staff at a church and was asked to lead staff devotions one morning.  As I started to share a little of the Lord was showing me, a phone rang and a coworker left the group huddle and rushed off to answer, but not before saying, "Excuse me while I go to work, while you all stay here and rest-- somebody still has to work."  He thought he was amusing, but I've come to see this attitude repeatedly in the Body of Christ and it's an attitude that stems from a misunderstanding of what Biblical rest truly is.  

One of the most profound passages on rest can be found in Hebrews.  Hebrews 3 & 4 recount the history of the children of Israel during the time of Moses. The Hebrews had been slaves in Egypt for more than 400 years and God sends a deliverer, in the person of Moses, to lead them out of bondage and captivity.  God performs many great signs, wonders and miracles before them.   Not only the ten plagues against Egypt and Pharaoh, but the protection of all of the Israelites throughout the duration of these plagues. God brings them out, allowing the Israelites to cross the Red Sea on dry land, subsequently drowning the Egyptian armies that pursued behind them.  But His provision and protection doesn't end there.  God continues to provide for their every need as He is leading them to the land of Canaan-- a land promised to their forefather Abraham, and his descendants,(repeatedly) by God.  God's presence is tangible and physical to them-- a cloud by day to protect them from the scorching dessert sun, a pillar of fire by night to keep them warm and to lead the way.  He sends down manna, (aka Angels Food) as a daily provision, He brings water flowing from a rock to quench their thirst and sustain them.  God lovingly provides for their every need despite their constant griping, complaining and doubting.  God was longing to bring His people from Egyptian slavery into a place of rest where He, alone, provided for their every need. In Exodus 33:14, God assures Moses His presence will go with him as he leads the people into the Promised Land, "My presence will go with you, and I will give you REST."

No matter how much good God did, the Israelites could only focus on the negative and their perceived hinderances.   Not only were there already people living in Canaan who Israel would have to defeat,  but there were several other hostile lands they would pass through along their journey.  However, before a single battle had been fought, God calls out every single one of their enemies by name and assures them that He had already delivered every last one of them into their hands.  As far as God was concerned, it was a done deal if only the Israelites would have the courage to walk out the victory He had already secured for them.  He simply needed them to have faith that that He was able to bring to pass what He had promised.  God gave them endless reasons to have faith in Him, Yet we continually see a people without faith.  Over and over again while seeing daily miraculous signs, they declared to Moses, "Why have you brought us out into the wilderness to die?  We would have been better off in Egypt."

When they finally get close to Canaan, Moses sends in 12 spies to survey the land and their enemies.  10 of the 12 come back saying it's a hopeless cause, only Joshua and Caleb see God, His promise and His track record as being bigger than the "giants" inhabiting the land.  God is offering them a land flowing with milk and honey, "Land for which you did not labor, cities which you did not build...vineyards and olive groves you did not plant," (Joshua 2:13).  He took them out of slavery to bring them to a place of REST, where the work had all been finished and completed for them, yet they refused to believe in Him, to take Him at His word.  Instead, they began plotting to stone Joshua and Caleb because they dared to believe the word of The Lord.

When the people of Israel refused to inhabit Canaan, even after the Lord had given them every assurance of victory, the Bible says God then swore in His wrath that every man (age 20 and upward) who came out of Egypt with Moses would not enter His rest (the land promised to them by God) because of their unbelief.  God then sends them wandering 40 years in the desert as these generations all pass away-- only Joshua and Caleb were spared along with the youth who came out of Egypt. This story speaks volumes to those of us who think that we would believe if only we could SEE.  Surely, blessed is he who believes and does not see except with the eyes of his heart.

Did you know that Israel's disobedience in the wilderness is good news for us today?  Hebrews 3 & 4 tell us that because the nation of Israel refused to enter His rest-- His promise of rest still remains for us today! And this promise of rest is now FAR GREATER because Christ Jesus Himself (and not mere man) has now become our High Priest.  We are grafted into a covenant no longer between God and man, but between God and Christ Jesus-- neither of Whom are capable of failure.  This promise of rest that still remains for us today no longer hinges on man's obedience, but this rest has been secured and is waiting for us BECAUSE JESUS WAS ALREADY OBEDIENT.  The first three chapters of Hebrews illustrate the divinity of Jesus and show how He is superior to the angels and also to Moses and an equal to Father God, Himself.  There is a constant imploring in these first three chapters to take heed, to  "[thoughtfully and attentively] consider Jesus, the Apostle and High Priest Whom we confessed [as ours when we embraced the Christian faith] (3:1, AMP)." 

"Today if you will hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion, in the day of trial in the wilderness, where your fathers tested Me, tried Me, and saw My works forty years.  Therefore I was angry with that generation, and said, 'They always go astray in their heart, and they have not known My ways.' So I swore in My wrath, 'They shall not enter My rest.' (Hebrews 3:7-11).

"Therefore while the promise of entering His rest still holds and is offered today, let us be afraid to distrust it, lest any of you should think he has come too late and has come short of reaching it.  For indeed we have had the glad tidings [Gospel of God] proclaimed to us just as truly as they [the Israelites of old did when the good news of deliverance from bondage came to them]; but the message they heard did not benefit them, because it was not mixed with faith (with the leaning of the entire personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom and goodness) by those who heard it.  For we who have believed do enter that rest, in accordance with His declaration that those [who did not believe] should not enter when He said, As I swore in My wrath, They shall not enter My rest; and this He said although His works had been completed and prepared [and waiting for all who would believe] from the foundation of the world. For in a certain place He has said this about the seventh day:  And God rested on the seventh day from all His works.  And they forfeited their part in it."  (Hebrews 4:1-5)

I love what God is telling us here.  The same was true for the nation of Israel that is still true for us today-- ALL of the work necessary for every last thing we will ever have need of was provided for at the foundation of the world and just waiting for all who would believe. It almost boggles my mind to conceive this, but when God spoke the world and all of creation into existence-- The words He spoke forth were so full, so complete, that in those words was embedded the full plan for the redemption of humanity. He is Wisdom Himself. When He rested on the seventh day, He had not only created all of the heavens, the earth and mankind, He had made a way, a provision for everything mankind would ever have need of. When you believe according to His Word, you are not trying to make something happen, you are simply putting yourself into position to receive, by faith, what's already been created, provided and given to you.  You know what really stands out to me about this passage?  There was a truth about the Father and about His goodness that the Israelites did not know.  No matter how much He tried to convey it to them, they did not know how good God was.  And the Word tells us that because they didn't know of His goodness, they couldn't have faith in that goodness and consequently they could not benefit from His goodness. God provided EVERYTHING.  Their only responsibility was to believe in what they could perceive, daily, with their physical senses.  For us today-- our only responsibility is to believe in the Father and His goodness.   What is it that you're waiting on the Lord for?  What kind of breakthrough do you need?  Maybe you need healing in your body, deliverance from bondage or a miracle in your finances-- whatever it is-- the work is already complete, the manifestation of that promise is already waiting for you and it has been since God rested on the seventh day of creation.  This is a whole separate teaching, but He's not even looking to you for YOUR faith, the Word tells us that we've all been given the same measure of faith and it's the faith of Jesus Himself (Romans 12:3).  So stop looking to your own faith and look to Jesus, thoughtfully and attentively consider Him and watch your faith effortlessly rise. 

"Again He sets a definite day, [a new] Today, and gives another opportunity of securing that rest saying...Today, if you would hear His voice and when you hear it, do not harden your hearts.  This mention of a rest was not a reference to their entering into Canaan.  For if Joshua had given them rest, He [God] would not speak afterward about another day.  So then, there is still awaiting a full and complete Sabbath-rest reserved for the [true] people of God; For he who has entered God's rest also has ceased from the weariness and pain of human labors, just as God rested from those labors, peculiarly His own.  Let us therefore be zealous and exert ourselves and strive diligently to enter that rest [of God, to know and experience it for ourselves], that no one may fall or perish by the same kind of unbelief and disobedience [into which those in the wilderness fell]. (Hebrews 4:7-11)

I love how clearly this passage illustrates what true, Biblical rest is-- "Ceasing from the weariness and pain of human labors."  If you have not already read it, I encourage you to go back and read my first blog post, The One Man.  We have to come to the realization that there are no works of our own that can qualify us for eternal life or to receive anything from the Lord.  Any blessing we receive from the Father is because of Jesus, His work, His sacrifice, His qualification-- not our own.  Jesus has done it all-- just as God was trying to do for the people of Israel to bring them into that Promised Land, a place of rest-- this is what He's calling us to today. He wants us to rest in the finished work of Jesus and simply receive what's already been provided for us.  

Many years ago now, I heard my senior Pastor, Pastor Joseph Prince, ministering about Abraham-- specifically from Paul's account in Romans 4:19-20, "He (Abraham) did not weaken in faith when he considered the [utter] impotence of his own body, which was as good as dead because he was about a hundred years old, or [when he considered] the barrenness of Sarah's [deadened] womb.  No unbelief or distrust made him waver (doubtingly question) concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong and was empowered by faith as he gave praise and glory to God, fully satisfied and assured that God was able and mighty to keep His word and to do what He had promised."  Another translation says, "Abraham stood steadfast in his faith, giving glory to God."  Pastor Prince pointed back to the word in this verse used for "Glory."  When we think of glory, we tend to think of majesty and splendor, but the actual word used here is "Doxan" and it's primary definition is "Good opinion."  That literally, Abraham stood steadfast in his faith by having a good opinion of The Lord!  When you consider Abraham and his story-- he had a million reasons to throw in the towel.  God promises descendants more numerous than the stars in the sky, that he would be the father of a great and mighty nation.  But yet at 100 years old, he had no children, his wife Sarah was completely barren and at 90 years old, was long past the years of bearing children.  There was a looooong period of time between the promise given to Abraham and any sign of a manifestation of that promise.  Then there was the matter of Abraham and Sarah trying to take matters into their own hands and producing an heir by Sarah's maidservant, Hagar.  If that wasn't enough, once Sarah does finally give birth to Isaac-- God asks Abraham to sacrifice his one and only son and heir, though stops him at the very last moment and gives him a ram to sacrifice instead.  If anyone has reason to give up on God-- it was Abraham.  God was taking a long time to deliver on His promise, Abraham had failed God, the list goes on and on.  YET THROUGH IT ALL, ABRAHAM NEVER GAVE UP HIS GOOD OPINION OF THE LORD. Even when God asked him to sacrifice his son and heir, the Bible tells us that Abraham had such a good opinion of the Lord that he knew that if he killed Isaac, God would raise him back from the dead. When I heard this, I meditated on it and took it to heart.  From that point on, any time my husband and I have been facing a situation that had unknowns or uncertainties, every single time a thought, concern or fear would come to mind, I would make myself stop and (physically) say, "Lord I choose to have a good opinion of You!"  There were days that I said this 500 times.  But you know what I discovered?  That when I stopped and did this, it brought my soul (my mind, my will and my emotions) into agreement and REST with the truth my spirit already knows-- God is good, He is for me, not against me.  What He said He would do, He is able to bring it to pass.  Since we have started doing this, we have seen untold, quick manifestations of the promises and blessings of God in our lives.  I cannot tell you how many times we have had supernatural favor.  I have lost count of how many times my husband's salary has been doubled-- just in the past 6 years since we have been married.  When you can get your soul into alignment with the truth and rest your spirit already knows, your breakthrough is imminent. 

It is interesting that Hebrews tells us to "Labor diligently to enter that rest."  We are to labor diligently and zealously to keep ourselves in a place of peace to know that Jesus has done all the work on our behalf-- that He is calling us to a place of rest where His love, His provision, His healing (everything we have need of) can flow, unhindered to and through us. This is precisely what He was wanting to provide for the children of Israel-- to bring them to a land where the work had already been done for them (cities they did not build, vineyards they did not plant).  He simply wanted them, as He wants us, to be beneficiaries of what He's accomplished and allow the fullness of Who He is to flow freely to us (meeting our needs) and through us (good works) to others.  I was just listening to our pastor teach from John 15 on "I am the Vine, you are the branches."  He so eloquently showed that when we are trying and striving to bear fruit, we are clenching and cutting off the supply of the Vine.  The branch doesn't labor, it is the vine that is responsible to nourish and provide-- the branch just needs to receive and allow the True Vine (Who is always producing everything you have need of) to produce the fruit! When you start focusing on yourself, your effort, your faith, it's as if the branch is clenching and cutting off the nutrients and supply at the source.  

I will close with this one last story.  My husband and I just celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary this past March.  Our favorite getaway has become Banff, Canada where we spent our honeymoon in 2009.  Not just any place in Banff, but the Banff Springs Hotel, specifically the spa at the Banff Springs Hotel.  It's a very exclusive, luxurious spa.  You enter through either the mens or the ladies dressing rooms.  As you walk past the dressing area you walk through an area of saunas and whirlpools, then out to the breathtaking mineral pool in an enclosed glass dome.  When you are inside that glass dome, it's as if you are surrounded by the mountains, they are so close, you feel like you could reach and and touch them.  All around the mineral pool are separate hot springs waterfalls to sit under.  I really cannot do this scene any justice with my words.  When we go to the Banff Springs, we literally spend all day at the spa.  When you're not in the water, everyone walks around in huge, fluffy white Fairmont robes and slippers.  My husband and I always retire to what's referred to as the "Co-ed Lounge".  We sit in plus armchairs with our feet propped up on the ottomans.  There are soft blankets to cover up with.  You simply push a button and order food to be (quietly) delivered to the room.  We sit overlooking a wall of glass.  There between two mountains a crystal blue river runs through the center.  You are so close you feel like you're sitting right in the midst of nature.  Although we have thoroughly enjoyed every trip to the Banff Springs, our honeymoon had a special kind of enjoyment.  When you're on your honeymoon, no one expects to talk to you or get in contact with you.  The whole week we were away, I didn't even have my phone turned on.  There were no text message alerts, no missed calls, no emails, no child at home missing us-- just a week of pure relaxation and enjoyment.  We had spent one of the first days of our honeymoon at the spa and when we were deciding how we wanted to spend our last, full day in Banff-- we both agreed, the whole day at the spa was the answer.  After hours of floating in the mineral pool, sitting under the waterfalls and enjoying the amazing amenities, we were resting in the Co-ed lounge in our robes and slippers.  I was covered up in my blanket, gazing out at the mountains.  I was feeling so inspired by God's beauty and majesty, I was reading through the Psalms, paying close attention to the passages that compared Him to the mighty mountains and creation.  After a time, I just laid my head back, closed my eyes and I remember feeling SO rested.  I remember thinking to myself, "There is literally, absolutely nothing for me to do, but to sit here are rest.  No one is trying to get in touch with me, there's no housework, no boxes for me to unpack, there is nothing for me to do."  It was a deep, deep sense of peace and rest.  As I was meditating on that reality, the Lord spoke quietly to my heart and said, "This is how you should feel in your relationship with Me all the time.  There is nothing left for you to do."  My friends, how different our lives would be if we could live in this reality without interruption.  To live in a state of constant knowing that He has done it all and our only job is to believe in Him, rest in Him and allow Him to flow in and through us.  This is the kind of rest that will allow you to walk out the victory for whatever situation you are facing.  "For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which HE prepared in advance that we should walk in them." (Ephesians 2:10) Simply believe, have a good opinion of The Lord and REST in what He's already done for you.

 

 

 

Give the people Jesus...

I've SO been wanting to write on here all this past week.  I got busy helping with and attending a church retreat, but I was writing a great new post in my head (Rest- Your Final Key to Victory in Every Situation).  However, over the weekend at the retreat and also again this morning, the Lord start reminding me of some things He spoke to me several years ago.  It has been burning in my heart this morning and I know I need to share it with you all.  

Before I came to be home, full time, with my husband and daughter, I was on staff at a youth ministry.  My official title was Associate Youth Pastor, but my working title was always Operations Manager.  While I so much treasured the opportunities to teach and minister, the biggest part of what I did was to manage all of our volunteer teams and project manage events. Aside from our weekly ministry at the church, during the summer we also did several large-scale youth ministry conferences in correlation with the adult Believers Conventions at Kenneth Copeland Ministries.  When we did those events, I also managed all of the volunteer teams on the road and one of the things I always did, was gather everyone up first thing in the morning and devote time to focusing on the Lord to see what He had to say to us.  To feed on Him and be empowered for our long days of ministry.   

During this particular summer of 2008, I was reading Destined to Reign by Pastor Joseph Prince.  I could not put the book down.  Every spare second I had, I was reading, highlighting and taking notes.  During conventions, those spare seconds were few and far between, our days of ministry were quite long.  We started with an early morning session, that speaker would no sooner finish and a 2nd session would immediately start.  We then had a break for lunch and came back for double afternoon sessions, quick dinner and big evening session... for five days straight!  Towards the end of the week, we always devoted one of our mornings to what we called "Healing School".  We taught on God's will for health, the perfection of the sacrifice of Jesus and all the cross accomplished for us.  We would teach these young people how to appropriate the gift of healing that had been secured for them. 

All summer long, the Lord had been ministering to my heart on healing.  I had been watching some teachings from Andrew Wommack and felt really encouraged to type out every Scripture and instance in the New Testament where Jesus or His disciples laid hands on the sick and they were healed.  I typed them out and as I would read through them daily (often many times a day), I would envision myself being the one laying hands on people and calling the sick whole.  I was Peter speaking, "Silver and gold I do not have, but such as I have, I give to thee, in the Name of Jesus, rise up and walk."  I was constantly meditating on these stories and the Lord was speaking to me so much about healing-- how it is His desire for all Believers to not only be whole, but to lay hands on the sick and see them recover. 

Well, this particular morning had come for healing school and I found myself awake in the early hours of the morning talking to the Lord and read just a few pages in Destined to Reign.  It just so happened on the morning of Healing School, that I was at the place in the book where Pastor Prince was talking about an explosion of healing miracles that they experienced at New Creation Church when the people began to focus NOT on themselves or their own faith, but began to fix their eyes on Jesus, on the cross.  As I was reading this, I was physically overcome by the presence of the Lord and experienced a momentary vision.  It was as if I was looking out from behind Jesus' eyes while He hung on the cross.  I remember vividly that I could hear His heart beating-- something like you would hear in a movie sequence where someone was dying-- it was loud, intentional and slowing, He was dying.  In those last moments, everything went black as Jesus became blind, His heart beat slower and then I could no longer hear as He became deaf and then He died.  I realized in that moment how FULLY He had borne every type of sickness and disease in the perfection of His sacrifice at Calvary. 

If you haven't read my first post,  The One Man, I talk at length about how fully Jesus fulfilled the demands of God's holiness on the cross.  Sickness and death, degeneration in our bodies are all a result of the sin that entered the world through the one man, Adam.  If not for that sin, we would have no sickness.  Jesus fully paid the price for sin with the perfect sacrifice of Himself, thus undoing all of the effects of sin, reversing every curse.  Consequently, the more we understand our righteousness in Him, the more we will understand how fully our bodies have been set free from sickness and disease.  "But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for iniquities; the chastisement of our peace was upon Him and by His stripes we are healed," Isaiah 53:5.

Going back to this particular morning as soon as this short vision had ended, I looked at the clock and saw that I should have left at least ten minutes earlier to lead morning devotions with our volunteers.  I ran from my hotel room through downtown Fort Worth to the convention center to meet with our team.  The presence of the Lord was so tangible and strong.  As I stood before them to tell them what the Lord had just shown me, there was such a hushed reverence and awe of Him.  I can hardly explain it, I just know that what the Lord ministered to me, He ministered to them and it was overwhelming goodness.  We all went into the meeting hall to meet with the rest of our team-- usually we would all pray together with the worship team, but the Lord had been ministering to them all morning and their practice session had turned into a time a sweet worship.  We all just entered into the presence of the Lord, closely.  They were singing an old song, "You deserve the glory, You deserve the honor.  Lord we lift our hands in worship as we bless Your holy Name.  You are great, You do miracles so great.  There is no one else like You, no one else like You."  I remember standing there is total awe of the Lord and the only words I could get out were these, "Lord, I can't even sing these words, they are not enough to say of who You are."  He answered back to me, "If you want to show Me your love, give the people Jesus."  

The Father loves the Son so much-- in the Son is the fullness of the answer to everything we will ever need.  He has given us everything in Jesus.  He LONGS for His people to see all we already have in Him.  

In that moment, I knew exactly what He wanted me to do.  One of my sweet volunteers had found lumps in her breasts in the weeks leading up to that time and I knew at that moment, we were discerning the sacrifice of the Lord to the extent where healing was flowing freely.  He led me to pray for her, to curse the cancer and declare her body whole in the Name of Jesus.  After the convention was over, she had a chance to go to the doctor and was diagnosed with aggressive breast cancer, but she chose to believe what the Lord has already said to her and knew that she had already received the fullness of her healing.  Sure enough, even before she had her scheduled surgery to remove the cancerous mass, she demanded that they do one more ultrasound.  The technician performing the scan, didn't know the particulars of her case, but asked her when she had her surgery since it was obvious the cancer had already been removed.  All because of Jesus. 

We went on with our morning session of healing school and at the end, I was called up front with a team to lay hands on anyone who was wanting to receive healing and desired someone to pray with them. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw some of our security team bringing an older lady my direction.  It struck me as odd.  With being over all of our volunteer teams and over all of the areas (such as security and registration), I know that we have really strict policies about who can be in that room-- especially where adults are concerned.  To protect our young people, there are no adults aside from youth pastors they attended with.  Every adult goes through a check-in process, has to fill out a form and leave their drivers license at the registration desk to even step into the room. But they brought this older lady to me and she began to share her story.  She was losing her eyesight.  She had been sitting in the adult services and the Lord started talking to her, told her to get up and walk across the convention center to the youth meetings.  The voice of the Lord was so strong, she just knew she needed to listen.  She told me, "I felt like the woman with the issue of blood trying to get in here since they don't allow adults, but I knew I was supposed to come down here, that I was going to be healed today.  As soon as they finally let me in the back of the room and I saw you, I knew you were the one who was supposed to pray for me."  As I laid my hands on her, I just saw Jesus there with me-- I placed my hands in His and just allowed myself to be the vessel He flowed through as her eyesight was restored. 

This is what it means to give the people Jesus.  To just know Him on a level of intimate affection, to see who He is, to allow Him to flow freely through you. I know there's not an ounce of me that can take one iota of credit for anything the Lord used me for then or will ever use me for.  As I was walking to lunch after this amazing service, I was just talking to Jesus as if I could see Him physically there with me.  As I walked down the street, I saw a crippled man who looked like he was probably homeless. Jesus said, "Ask that man if he wants to be well today," and I did not.  Even though the Lord had just done and shown me all of these amazing things. I know now that I need to know Him even MORE so that I would never question or shrink back from any opportunity that He wants to use me for.  I'm so thankful there is no condemnation in Him, but that I can use that missed opportunity to seek Him even more.  To know His love for me even more, to know the power of the cross even more.  So that next time when He says, "Ask that man if he wants to be well today," I will know it has nothing to do with me, my ability or my faith, but that He, the True Vine, just wants to flow through this little branch.  Thank you Lord!

 The more you know Him, the more you will know of His great love for you.  The more you know of His love, of all He has already accomplished for and in you, the more you will love Him and find yourself being obedient to whatever He asks of you.  

When I got back to my hotel room, I saw my bedside table lined with several medications I was on at the time.  Just a few months before, I had emergency surgery for an ovarian cyst that had become so large, it began to cut off the blood supply to my ovaries, but was successfully removed.  The surgeon said that when they got inside, they also found a great deal of endometriosis that they removed.  Afterwards, I was on several medications to "protect my fertility" for the future and to hopefully keep the endometriosis at bay. I was told it would likely be very hard for me to ever conceive a child.  But as I looked at those medications and reflected on all the Lord had done that morning, I heard Him say, "You know you don't need those anymore."  I threw them away that very moment.  This was August of 2008.  A few days after this convention ended, I met my husband!  We were engaged just two months later in October of 2008, married in March of 2009.  Less than 10 months later, we found out we were expecting our first child, Holiday Jane who arrived perfectly in 2010.  The Lord is good.  Jesus is amazing-- so much more than we even know.  I pray as the Apostle Paul did that they eyes of our understanding would be enlightened that we may come to know the hope of HIS calling-- to see all that Jesus did and accomplished for us and all that is available to us through Him. 

 

Start the Right Way, Every Day

Not only did I grow up in church, my parents did children's ministry at our little country church for close to 20 years.  I can still see my mom standing in front of the puppet stage reciting over and over again, "You are a spirit, you have a soul, you live in a body."  As I type this, it is also bringing back many memories of being in the family car, heading to funerals.  Yes, funerals.  We have very large extended families on both sides and consequently, I've attended more than a few funerals.  As we drove to the funeral home, my parents would always remind us-- remember, the body you see there is just their "Earth suit," their spirit is now in heaven with God-- to be absent from the body is to be present with the Father."  (2 Corinthians 5:8).

One of the best books I've ever read as a Believer is  Spirit, Soul and Body by Andrew Wommack. If you haven't read it, get it today! You will learn some fundamental truths that will change your life. You will discover that because of Jesus' work on the cross, your spirit is always rejoicing, always for the Lord, sealed with the Holy Spirit of promise (Ephesians 1:13; 2 Corinthians 1:22). Furthermore, you will gain a confident assurance that who you are in your born-again spirit is the REAL YOU!

I think sometimes Believers fail to see the work of redemption in their lives because they're always basing everything on how they feel when that complete work is already resident and alive in their spirit-- not it their soul! Man, if I based everything on my emotions all the time and how I "feel," I'd be a hot mess!  My emotions and feelings can change drastically from morning until night-- sometimes even within the same minute! Don't focus on how you feel, focus on getting your soul in line with the truth your born-again spirit already knows and just watch things take a drastic turn-around!  What are some of these truths? 

"For in Him [Christ] dwells the fullness of the Godhead, bodily; and you are complete in Him, who is the head of all principality and power."  Colossians 2:9-10

"But if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your moral bodies through His spirit who dwells in you."  Romans 8:11

"Love had been perfected among us in this: that we may have confidence in the day of judgement; because as He is, so are we in this world." 1 John 4:17

So let's just recap these verses-- in you RIGHT NOW, right this very moment, dwells the fullness of the Godhead (Father, Son and Holy Spirit).  The same resurrection spirit that raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you-- so much so that as JESUS is, right now, so are YOU in THIS world.  When you can get your soul (your mind, will and emotions) in agreement with the truth that's already in your spirit, you open up the floodgates for all of these things to flow in and through you and to change your circumstances in the here and now. 

What I've discovered for me is that if I just wake up and take my day as it comes, I find myself pretty much consumed with what I think and feel.  HOWEVER, when I take time to reflect on, stir up and remind myself of the truth of who I really am, what Jesus has already done for me-- everything changes for the better! I have an abundance of peace and joy.  My ears are way more in tune with the voice of the Holy Spirit-- I have practical wisdom for everyday tasks, I have a constant awareness, I am not alone, I am not dependent on myself or my own abilities.  

What I'm about to share with you is NOT a formula!  It's not a how-to, follow this, repeat after me. These are simply the truths from Scripture that I focus on that elevate my earthly eyes to see the TRUTH of the real me and how the Father sees me.

Psalm 103:1-5 has become my favorite Psalm to start my day out with because I command my SOUL to get in alignment with the TRUTH my spirit already knows!  I usually speak this one out loud and I pause and give myself time to reflect on the truth of each and every one of these statements:

"Bless the Lord Oh my soul; And all that is within me, bless His holy name!

(Speak to your mind, your will, your emotions-- tell them to bless the Lord!)

Bless the Lord Oh my soul; and forget not all His benefits:

Who forgives all your iniquities;

Who heals all of your diseases;

Who redeems your life from destruction; 

Who crowns you with loving kindnesses and tender mercies; 

Who satisfies your mouth with good things so your youth is renewed like the eagle's."

"Father, I thank you that I have already been translated and conveyed from the kingdom of this world to the Kingdom of the Son of Your love (Colossians 1:13-14).  I am, right now, a citizen of your Kingdom and I thank You that Your Kingdom is righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Ghost (Romans 14:17) and all of heaven is available to me!  I thank you that He who knew no sin became sin for me that I might become the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus (2 Corinthians 5:21).  And because my righteousness is secure in You, I have a peace that surpasses understanding; a peace that garrisons and mounts guard protecting my heart and mind (Philippians 4:7 AMP).  I thank You that because of this righteousness and peace, I have great JOY that is my strength today (Nehemiah 8:10)!"
 

The One Man

God's holiness demanded absolute perfection, utter and flawless obedience.  It demanded the most beautiful, spotless, blameless sacrifice.  All through the Old Testament, we see imperfect people bringing continual sacrifices that were able to provide only momentary, temporary at best, forgiveness of sin.  The Law demanded more.  Even when some of the most religious people thought they had finally attained perfection in keeping the Law through upholding its rigorous standards outwardly, when Jesus came on the scene, He brought them back to the original intent and purpose of the Law- to show them their need for a Savior.  He showed them that outwardly you may look like you have it all together, but that God alone sees the inside, the heart, the mind-- nothing is concealed from Him. Keeping the Law outwardly isn't enough if your heart has not been transformed.

As He sat to eat with these religious leaders, He said to them, "Now you Pharisees make the outside of the cup and dish clean, but your inward part is full of greed and wickedness. Foolish ones!  Did not He who made the outside make the inside also?"  "You tithe mint and rue and all manner of herbs and pass by justice and the love of God... Woe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites. For you are like graves which are not seen and the men who walk over them are not aware of them."  Luke 11:37-44

But these Pharisees Jesus was talking to were considered the best of the best when it came to keeping the Law. They did it better than anyone else, they were seemingly the closest you could get to holy and perfect. Jesus response to them was to emphasize what the Law was meant to do-- to bring them to the end of themselves, to expose their utter need for a Savior.  He was trying to show them that none, but The One was worthy, perfect or holy enough to attain to God's level of holiness and perfection. The Law was never capable of making men holy, only He could do that.  It was a temporary system to set the stage for The One who was coming, The One who would reconcile the world again to God.

Throughout Jesus' earthly ministry, we see a repeated theme: He was most able to move and perform miracles among those who knew they weren't good enough. Self righteousness has always stopped the flow of His power. But to those who knew they weren't holy enough, His grace and healing flowed freely. To those who were confident in their own efforts, their own holiness and ability to keep the Law, He had no other choice, no other response, but to bring them back to the Law, to show them how they were falling short of it, to show them their need for a Savior. For these people, pointing them back to the Law, to their need of Him, was the most loving thing He could do.

In the Gospels, we find the story of a man commonly referred to as the rich, young ruler. He approached Jesus with flattering words, calling Him, "Good teacher." Jesus said to him,"Why do you call me good when no one is good but God?" But even with Jesus alluding to His Person as the Messiah, the rich young ruler still failed to recognize Him as such. He went on to ask Jesus what he could do to inherit eternal life. Knowing that this man would have known the Commandments by heart, and also by the fact that he referred to Jesus as "Good" (suggesting Jesus had done a lot of good things to merit him such a title), It is obvious the rich, young ruler doesn't know who Jesus is.  Jesus can see this man prides himself in his supposed ability to keep the Law, but yet this man still seems to know that there is something missing-- something more. Instead of seeing his need for a Savior (in the person of Jesus) as that missing piece, he is still focused on what other good thing he must yet do and he is certain if he just knows what it is, he can do it. Jesus replies to him, "You know the Commandments: Do not commit adultery, Do not murder, Do not steal, Do not defraud, Honor your father and mother." To which the rich, young ruler replied, "Teacher, all these I have kept from my youth." With this man's confidence in his own ability, his own self righteousness, Jesus has no choice but to emphasize the Law- to show him his own inadequacy- his need for a Savior. "Then Jesus looking at him, loved him and said to him, "One thing you lack:  Go your way, sell whatever you have, and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, take up your cross and follow Me." This passage goes on to say that the ruler walked away sad and sorrowful for he had great possessions. Mark 10:17-22. The Law will always bring you to your inadequacy-- it will always point out that which you lack. 

One of the very next stories we see in the Gospels is that of Zacchaeus, a tax collector.  Tax collectors in this day and age were despised. Though they were usually Jews, they worked for the Roman Empire and were seen as traitors to the Jewish people. They made their living by tacking on an extra sum to the required taxes which they kept for themselves. However, many tax collectors (such as the Chief Tax Collector, which Zacchaeus was) would often conspire with Roman authorities to extort great sums of money from the people, making themselves very wealthy.  Throughout Scripture, we see tax collectors thrown in the lot with the worst kinds of sinners, prostitutes and outcasts. 

Yet to the tax collector Zacchaeus who climbed the tree, hungry to see the man Jesus- to Him Jesus came, called him by name and told him he was coming to eat with his family, in his home. There is so much to unpack here in Jesus' actions.  First, that Jesus came to where Zacchaeus was. There were no pre-qualifications, no strings attached, no record of Zacchaeus repenting. We just know he was short in stature, wanted to get a better view of Jesus and climbed a tree to see above the crowd. Not only did Jesus come to this despised sinner and social outcast, but the Scripture clearly states Jesus called Zaccheaus by name. As you study the Bible, you will find names often have great importance and many times add an extra depth of understanding to the context of the story in which they are contained; Zaccheaus is no exception. His name literally translates, "Holy, pure, not guilty." Then there was this whole idea of Jesus going to Zaccheaus' home and eating with him. The Pharisees and religious leaders would never entertain such a notion and this kind of behavior is precisely why Jesus earned the nickname, "Friend of sinners." The Pharisees were so focused on the outward appearance, they believed that they, being "clean," would become unclean be associating with those who they considered unclean. Yet we see with Jesus, that He alone who was perfectly clean (inside and out) had the ability to hang out with the unclean and make them clean. I think it's safe to say that, given his occupation, Zacchaeus had no confidence in his own righteousness or good behavior. The Scripture says Zacchaeus joyfully received Jesus into his home.

Comparing the story of Zacchaeus to the rich young ruler, I see one thing immediately-- Jesus loved them both.  His love is clearly demonstrated in His actions toward Zacchaeus and with the rich, young ruler Scripture says, "Then Jesus looking at him, loved him..."  How does Zacchaeus respond to the grace and love that Jesus extended to him?  "Then Zacchaeus stood and said to the Lord, 'Look Lord, I give half of my goods to the poor; and if I have taken anything from anyone by false accusation, I restore fourfold.' And Jesus said to him, 'Today salvation has come to this house, because he also is a son of Abraham; for the Son of Man has come to seek and to save that which is lost.'"  This story stands in stark contrast to that of the rich, young ruler who walked away sorrowful because he had great possessions with no record of him giving away even a single shekel.  Such a contrast- one who sees his need for a Savior, one who still thinks he must save himself through his own effort.

Only ONE could satisfy the demands of God's holiness and perfection. Only the sacrifice of this ONE, the blood shed of this ONE would be enough to satisfy God's wrath against sin. Only Jesus, the pure spotless Lamb, could provide more than temporary pardon. His blood so perfectly met the demands of God's justice that it alone had the ability to completely blot out the sin and iniquity, not just for one man, but for all of mankind; not just for a moment, but for all of eternity; not just for one, but for all who would believe on Him and accept His sacrifice as their own.  

It has nothing to do with us, but everything to do with Him.  Just as there were no pre-qualifications for Zacchaeus, while we were still dead in our sins and trespasses Christ died for us.

"For when we were still without strength; in due time Christ died for the ungodly.  For scarcely for a righteous man will one die; yet perhaps for a good man someone would even dare to die, BUT GOT DEMONSTRATES HIS OWN LOVE TOWARD US, IN THAT WHILE WE WERE STILL SINNERS, CHRIST DIED FOR US."  Romans 5:6

IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN ABOUT THE ONE, IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN ABOUT JESUS. 

Even so much so, that in Romans, Paul takes us back to the beginning of creation with Adam.  He shows us how Adam was the "one man" who would be a type and shadow of "The One", Jesus, who was to come (referred to in Scripture as 'The Second Adam').  Paul shows us explicitly, that the very source of our sinfulness and sinful nature came not of our own selves, but came through that one man, Adam. I know this is a long portion of Scripture I'm about to share.  Read it slowly and let the totality of the Word of God sink into your heart:

"Therefore as sin came into the world through the one man, and death as the result of sin, so death spread to all men, [no one being able to stop it or escape its power] because all men sinned.  [To be sure] sin was in the world before ever the Law was given, but sin is not charged to men's account where there is no law [to transgress].  Yet death held sway from Adam to Moses [the lawgiver], even over those who did not themselves transgress as Adam did.  Adam was a type (prefigure) of the One who was to come [in reverse, the former destructive, THE LATTER SAVING].  

But God's free gift is not at all compared to the trespass [His grace is out of proportion to the fall of man].  For if many died through one man's falling away (his lapse, his offense), much more profusely did God's grace and the free gift [that comes] through the undeserved favor of the One Man Jesus Christ abound and overflow to and for [the benefit of] the many.

Nor is the free gift at all to be compared to the effect of that one [man's] sin.  For the sentence [following the trespass] of the one man brought condemnation, whereas the free gift following many transgressions brings justification.

For if because of one man's trespass death reigned through that one, how much more surely will those who receive [God's] overflowing grace (unmerited favor) and the free gift of righteousness [putting them into right standing with Himself] reign as kings in life through the One Man, Jesus Christ.

[One man's false step and falling away led] to condemnation for all men, so One Man's act of righteousness leads to acquittal and right standing with God for ALL men.

For just as by one man's disobedience the many were constituted sinners, so by One Man's obedience the many will be constituted righteous (made acceptable to God, brought into right standing with Him).  

But then the Law came in, [only] to expand and increase the trespass [making it more apparent and exciting opposition].  But where sin increased and abounded, grace (God's unmerited favor) HAS SURPASSED IT AND INCREASED THE MORE AND SUPERABOUNDED, so that [just] as sin has reigned in death, so grace (His unearned and undeserved favor) might reign also through righteousness (right standing with God) which issues in eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord."  Romans 5:12-20

You see, it has never been about you.  It has always been about the one man.  

God in His infinite wisdom is not limited in the depth of His sight or understanding-- He alone sees the end from the beginning.  While you were still dead in your trespass and sin, He saw the very source of the multitude of your sins-- NOT IN YOU, but in the one sin of the one man, Adam.  That one sin, lapse, offense had great consequence, for in Adam was the seed of all humanity.  That sin was powerful as it attached itself to all of mankind, but it's power was limited.  There was One of greater power coming, One Whose crimson blood could blot out, not just Adam's one sin, but ALL sin, for all mankind, for all of eternity. This One coming was a King willing to leave His throne. A Deity wrapped in humanity-- a child who was born, a Son who was given, the Second Adam Who ALONE was powerful enough to overcome the sin of the first Adam.  

Just as God's holiness demanded that all humanity be seen in the one sin of Adam, so now His justice demands that all humanity should now be seen in light of the sacrifice and righteousness of Jesus (the second Adam).  Just as our sinful nature had nothing to do with our many sins, but the one sin of Adam; our righteousness has nothing to do with the good things we do, but in the one perfect sacrifice of Jesus Christ.

IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN ABOUT ONE MAN, ONE SIN, ONE SACRIFICE FOR ALL.

Only if you choose to deny the sacrifice Jesus willingly made on your behalf, will you be found in sin-- the one sin of denying Christ who wants to apply His payment to cover your entire debt of sin.

Before Jesus ascended to heaven, He promised that another Helper was coming, the promised Holy Spirit.  

"Nevertheless I tell you the truth.  It is to your advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, The Helper (the Holy Spirit) will not come to you; but if I depart, I will send Him to you.  And when He has come, He will convict the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgement.  Of sin because they (unbelievers) to not believe in Me; of righteousness, because I go to My Father (the total work and payment for the righteousness of the Believer is complete); about judgement because the ruler (evil prince) of this world [Satan] is judged and condemned and sentence has already been passed upon him. (even though you may still see evil in the world, I have already overcome it all. The work for Satan's end and destruction is already complete.)" John 16:7-11 (words in italics mine). 

You see, the Holy Spirit bears witness to the complete work of redemption.  It's still about The One. Even though we still fall short, still make mistakes, the eyes of the Father are so perfect, so judicial, that it is impossible for Him to see the same sin in two places at once. His perfect justice does not allow Him to see you in a sin that was already paid for on the cross.  And not just paid for, the Scripture tells us that Jesus' sacrifice was an OVER payment for our sins. On the cross, Jesus willingly took on all sin, for all mankind, for all eternity. Hebrews 10:14 states that, "By one sacrifice, He has made perfect forever those who are being sanctified."  Furthermore God's wrath, punishment and judgement for that sin was completely poured out and SATISFIED at the cross so that when He sees you-- He now (legally) sees you in the righteousness and perfection of Jesus. This is why 1 John 4:17 can so boldly declare, "Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgement; because as He (Jesus) is, so are we in this world."  Not in heaven, eternity, or a future world to come-- but as JESUS is right now, at this very moment, so are YOU here on earth.

When you fall short, your own conscience will condemn you, but if you recognize His voice, you will begin to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit, in the midst of your failure, declaring you righteous.  This is grace.  It's not a doctrine, it's not a teaching, it's a person-- His Name is Jesus.  The Holy Spirit is present as our Helper to lead us and guide us into all truth.  When you fall short, the ultimate truth in that situation is that Jesus has already overpaid the price and taken on the full wrath and  punishment for that sin. Now consequently, you are the righteousness of God (in full right standing with God Himself) because of Jesus.  If you can tune the ear of your heart to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit, He is always speaking.  He will always give you wisdom, always lead you in advance on the best paths to follow.  But when you miss it, the ultimate truth is not that you have sinned and are in need of a payment for that sin, the ultimate truth is that you are the righteousness of God.

The Father knows full well that your capacity to overcome sin does not reside in your ability to attain to some moral standard that's good and pleasing enough to Him (which would be the same system as the Old Testament Law).  The Law was never given to make men holy, but to expose their need for a Savior.  The Law was not given to strengthen people, but rather to strengthen sin.  We see above where I quoted in Romans 5 that the Law was given to "expand and increase the trespass, making it more apparent..."  1 Corinthians 15:56 tells us, "The sting of death is sin and the STRENGTH OF SIN IS THE LAW."  So what WILL give you the power to overcome sin in your life?  Romans 6:14 clearly states, "For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace." The answer is that GRACE alone has and is the power to overcome sin. 

There is a well known passage of Scripture in the Gospels about a woman caught in adultery.  The Pharisees who so prided themselves in keeping the Law hated this extreme grace that Jesus was extending to the most blatant of sinners.  It made them angry, they were constantly trying to trick Jesus, to set Him up to fail, to find grounds to accuse Him.  They find a woman caught in the very act of adultery and drag her out into the street and ask Jesus what they should do.  According to the Law, she should be stoned.  Jesus is so full of wisdom (He is literally wisdom itself) He looks around at this crowd of accusers and says, "Okay. Let he who is without sin, throw the first stone."  It says Jesus then began writing on the ground (this area would have been stone). There are a lot of different views on what He might have been writing, I believe this was a picture of the Law, the Ten Commandments- the finger of God writing in stone. Whatever it was, one by one, these accusers left till there was no one remaining.  Jesus then looks at this woman and asks her, "Where are those accusers of yours? Has no one condemned you"  There is no one, "Neither do I condemn you, go and sin no more."  Jesus extends supreme grace to this woman, this sinner, this adulterer.  He gives her the gift of grace, the gift of no condemnation-- This gift of mercy and grace empowers her to 'Go and sin no more.'  Sin will no longer have mastery over her, because she is no longer under Law, she is now under grace.

In the Old Testament, the Jewish people were under an old covenant that was contingent upon man's obedience and ability to keep the Law.  As we have already seen, the purpose for this period of time was not to save men through the Law, but rather to expose their utter need for a Savior and set the scene for Jesus to come and do the saving.  Through Jesus' death and resurrection, He sets forth a New Covenant that is contingent upon HIS obedience to the cross-- which He has already completely fulfilled.  It takes us out of the equation.  Where do we come in?  Simply to respond by receiving what has been accomplished on our behalf.  This is what salvation is-- to see our need for a Savior and to accept Jesus' sacrifice as our own.

So what about NOW, once we're saved-- aren't there good things for us to do!  The answer is a resounding YES!  The difference now is that you aren't doing these good things to earn any merit with the Father.  No amount of good things you will ever do will ever qualify you to attain to God's level of holiness and perfection-- Jesus has already accomplished this for you.  The Word (Scriptures) are full of wisdom for us that will lead us and show us how to live.  The book of John starts out talking about Jesus and calls Him 'The Word'.

 "In the beginning [before all time] was the Word (Christ), and the Word was with God, and the Word was God Himself. He was present originally with God. All things were made and came into existence through Him; and without Him was not even one thing made that has come into being.  In Him was Life, and that Life was the Light of men," John 1:1-4.

You see Jesus and the Word are synonymous, they are one in the same. As you read the Bible, the Word, and you see how to live rightly, You are looking into the very face of The One who has already stood rightly and accomplished all of these precepts on your behalf.  There are several instances in Scripture that talk about Jesus and the Word being the Bread of Life. When you read the Word hungry to see Jesus, you are feeding on Him, learning of and about Him. And something miraculous happens-- you become LIKE HIM. This isn't my own idea, 1 Corinthians 3:18, "And all of us, as with unveiled face, [because we] continued to behold [in the Word of God] as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are constantly being transformed into His very own image in ever increasing splendor and from one degree of glory to another; [for this comes] from the Lord [Who is] the Spirit."  When you behold Jesus (feed on Him, study the Word, get to know Him), you will become like Him.

Most anyone can recite John 3:16, "For God so loved that world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever should believe on Him would not perish, but have eternal life."  People tend to think of "eternal life" in the future tense, most commonly as heaven.  Yet, later in John 17:3 we see 'eternal life' expounded upon, "And this is eternal life that they may know You, the one true God and Jesus Christ whom You have sent."  It's always been about Him and now we can dedicate our lives to knowing Him more completely.

It is this simple. This is the Gospel. Because of one act of sin in the Garden of Eden by one man, named Adam, sin entered the world. But when God spoke the world into existence, within the completeness and perfection of His Word was a plan for Redemption. Through the giving of the Law, He exposed to all mankind their need for a Savior, for The One, the Only One who had the ability to take upon Himself the sins (and judgment for those sins) for the entire world. This One Man came and took our place. He took your place. He took what He did not deserve so that when you receive Him, you receive what you did not deserve-- His very righteousness (right standing before the Father) and His sentence which is eternal life.  It's all about Him, His sacrifice, His obedience and not yours.  The more you know Him, the more you will love Him and want to become like Him-- and you will.  

The only question that remains is this-- what will you do with the grace that has been extended to you?  Will you, like Zacchaeus rejoice and gladly receive it and allow His grace to transform you?  Or, will you go away sorrowful still dependent on your own effort and ability to do good?

Grace, in the Person of Jesus, has forever changed humanity.  This is what we celebrate on Easter Sunday:  This One Man made one sacrifice that was enough.  It broke the chains of sin and death so completely that the very earth could not contain the power of His resurrected life.  The tomb burst forth, the Son of Man was risen again, having conquered eternally the sin and death that entered the world through that one man, Adam.  The Second Adam came, He lived perfectly, he died in your place and He rose again.  And for those who believe on Him, you are now in Him, in that One Man. God now sees you as one with that One Man and in His perfect sacrifice. 

My words cannot do the sacrifice of this One Man justice.  Instead I will close this with passage in Ephesians, penned by the Apostle Paul:

But God--so rich is He in His mercy!  Because of and in order to satisfy the great and wonderful and intense love with which He loved us, Even when we were dead (slain) by [our own] shortcomings and trespasses, He made us alive together in fellowship and in union with Christ; [He gave us the very life of Christ Himself, the same new life with which He quickened Him, for] it is by grace (His favor and mercy which you did not deserve) that you are saved (delivered from judgement and made partakers of Christ's salvation).  

And He raised us up together with Him and made us sit down together [giving us joint seating with Him] in the heavenly sphere [by virtue of our being] in Christ Jesus (the Messiah, the Anointed One).  He did this that He might clearly demonstrate through the ages to come the immeasurable (limitless, surpassing) riches of His free grace (His unmerited favor) in [His] kindness and goodness of heart toward us in Christ Jesus.

 For it is by free grace (God's unmerited favor) that you are saved (delivered from judgement and made partakers of Christ's salvation) through faith.  And this is not of your own selves [of your own doing, it came not through your own striving], but it is the gift of God;

Not because of works [not the fulfillment of the Law's demands], lest any man should boast.  [It is not the result of what anyone can possibly do, so no one can pride himself in it or take glory to himself.]

 For we are God's own handiwork (His workmanship), recreated in Christ Jesus, [born anew] that we may do those good works which God prepared beforehand for us [taking paths which He prepared ahead of time], that we should walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us live.]

Ephesians 2:4-10, Amplified